Lived The Secret Without Knowing
In December 2009, I was in a perfect relationship with ‘M,’ and everything was going very well. We lived together and had the same plans for the future. Butâ¦ I was falling in love with his best friend, ‘C.’ I was trying to not care about my feelings. C told me that he loved me, but he could not come between me and M, so he gave me a letter and said goodbye to me. It was the most painful thing I had gone through. I kept thinking that it was better if C and I were apart. We did not see each other for 3 or 4 months.
When we started to see each other again, with M, we tried to be just friends, but something could not keep us apart. C tried to find another girl, but he felt really sorry when he went out with her. He said to me that it felt wrong. I was about to tell him, that I could not live without him, but I could not.
In May 2011 we sat on his sofa and he told me that he could not live without me, that he misses me all the time. He said that he wanted us to fly far away from the country, because I was still together with his best friend M. I did not know what to do. When he told me that he not could live without me I was the happiest girl in the world, but at the same time totally confused. What was I supposed to do with my present boyfriend, M?
C and I talked to his mother and she was not surprised when we told her that we could not live without each other. She said that she had known it all the time. She also said that I had to break up with M without telling him any details about C and me.
I told M that I wanted to split up and move from him. He asked of course why, but I told him that I just didnât feel any love between him and me. I moved to a little apartment and everything was going well. Butâ¦ C got âcold feetâ and told me that he did not know if we could make it. He felt sorry for his best friend M.
I was totally devastated; we sat on his floor and cried. It felt like I died.
I left him, but I knew that we were supposed to be together. I must admit that it was the hardest time in my life, but I kept my head high. I started to write in a little book, like a diary, every day as a letter to him. I wrote about our life together and how wonderful our love was.
One day I had just parked my car and I got an SMS from C, and he asked if I wanted to come home to him for dinner and a movie. I had to slap myself in the face to assure that I was not dreaming. My tears ran down my cheek. I was so happy!
Now, we have almost lived together one year and we are so happy! Now I am thinking and visualizing us getting married.
I discovered The Secret in November 2012, so when I had the hardest time of my life, I did not know that I lived as The Secret teaches. I can just imagine what will happen in my life by my believing and visualizing!