My story goes like any other in the beginning. I grew up in a poor family moving constantly to avoid unpaid bills. I had an attitude that I am not the person to be successful. It even hurt my education and I dropped out of high school. Although I could not see myself rise above my situation, in the back of my head I knew or at least suspected there was something, some power that was buried. I just didn’t know how to use it. I always knew the power of one’s mind is great and it could change anything. I just didn’t know how. I studied other religions, magic and read books about the power of the mind by Edgar Casey. All of these gave me bits and pieces.

It did not seem very bumpy through out my life, somehow when I got into a bind of any kind it always had a way of working out and I knew it would. I was always getting things I wanted and attract things that I needed. I still was not connecting the dots.

I had been depressed most my life, those bouts were frequent. I did go back to school and finished college a year ago. It lifted my spirits but it wasn’t enough . The whole while my relationship with my kid’s father went down hill. He is an alcoholic you see. Never home( never was from the beginning) and when he was, we fought. I wanted to move out, I hated it there. I did not see it as my home. I could not afford to move out, I felt trapped. This made my environment very stressful so I sank deeper into my depression. I no longer paid full attention to my children. This was bad because they are young and my 4yr old daughter has Down’s Syndrome, (Oh that’s a another story I should tell about how The Secret (I didn’t know about) made an impact on my daughter) I did only what I had to do because I was the only one taking care of them. I was on auto pilot.

My step sister told me about The Secret and asked me to watch it, I did. I cried through the whole video, not tears of sadness but tears of happiness. I just need someone to confirm what I had suspected and to remind me what I already knew, to help me connect those dots.. This was 5 months ago. Since I first watched it (and I have watched it several times) I have been so High on life. I have not felt that cloud over me. That in itself is gold. Because of that happiness I found with in me, my environment became calm again. I play everyday with my children and cherish every moment again. I don’t worry about money ( I know It will always come to me) I just don’t worry about anything. I found my happiness by playing with my children it was hard to not think of everything else at first, but if you keep at it becomes easier to dump your thoughts in time.

After a while of walking around happy and not letting others dictate my happiness even when he would come home drunk and try to argue with me. Then one day decided to quit drinking ( all though he said it was a health reason not because he is an alcoholic, what ever) This changed him as well his poor attitude, and his pity parties stopped. He now comes home after work and hangs out with his children and I can stand to be in the same room with him. You know what I did? I slept in a different room and imagined being in a different place where I did not live with him and all was peaceful. So my environment became peaceful. We are friends again.

Although I have plans to keep changing my life ( still want to move out because I love change) I am happy and I keep learning things about myself too. I know I left a lot of interesting details and examples of the secret out but I think I will write a book if not for anything else it would be liberating.

Life really isn’t a destination its a journey and what a wonderful journey this will be now. I don’t think I have ever been so grateful for everything. Especially to know I was right. Thank you.