I finally conquered my fear!
I tried to use The Secret to lose weight, but 5 months into it I still didn’t see any results. I had actually gained weight. I couldn’t understand why. I had used The Secret successfully to get a job (in fact I got 3 jobs and had to turn 2 of them down, which had never happened to me before).
I read the book again and realized that this time I didn’t have faith, I didn’t believe. So with new confidence I tried again. Still no results. I couldn’t understand why. I read all the stories about other people who had lost weight by using The Secret, so why couldn’t I? The thoughts made me frustrated, worried, and stressed, and I often woke up with a heartburn in the morning.
It wasn’t until two nights ago when I just couldn’t fall asleep that I finally got an answer: I was too afraid of failure. I had been so afraid to fail that I completely forgot that I could succeed.
I had always been told that I was beautiful, but I never truly believed it myself. When I started to gain weight about 2.5 years ago, nobody told me I was beautiful anymore people, would just look at me with disappointed eyes or just ignore me. I got depressed, I rarely went to parties and I never went to the beach. Being in public was very hard for me. I really was ashamed of myself. I tried to love myself but whenever I looked in the mirror I got so disappointed because I couldn’t see any results.
So when I tried to use The Secret to get the body of my dreams I still was afraid. “What if I gain more weight instead, what if it doesn’t work?” was constantly on my mind, and as I mentioned before I gained weight, a lot.
When I made this discovery I was so relieved and my heartburn disappeared . I was too happy to go to sleep. I finally got an answer! Now that I knew what my problem was I decided to focus on success. But how could I overcome my fear of failure that was so deeply ingrained in me?
I decided to challenge myself. I was going to take the bull by the horns (a saying here in Sweden). I said to myself that I was going to burn 5 kilos of fat in one night without any exercise or any dieting, I could eat anything I wanted whenever I wanted, and that’s what I did. The next morning my mom was so shocked when she saw me but I wasn’t surprised at all, I knew it was already mine. And I’m going to continue doing this until I reach my dream weight: 58 kg.
And now I only see success, no failure in sight! And most important, I’m not afraid to believe anymore now I’m going to make all my dreams come true and live my life as it should be.