I Didn’t Know
A few days ago I was verbally assaulted by someone dear to me. The result is how I came to writing this to you today.
The sum total of my life story is rejection on top of rejection. It molded and shaped who I became. I was at a place, after being abandoned by everyone I loved, where I knew this was not why I was placed on this planet. I cried out literally to “The Universe”. I didn’t know why – my faith had been shaken and it was an instinct to do this. In doing so, I told the universe that I needed to see my purpose or I didn’t feel I could continue anymore. I was overwhelmed with hurt.
Somehow, it was planted within me, the thought: ‘You are not what you believe of yourself.’ I was astounded. I tried to remember anything good about me. What do I like about myself? Not much came to mind, then. Little by little, I remembered that I am a helper, I help people, I want to see others healed. I gave a public speech to 300 people about being victorious. Suddenly, I had a glimmer of hope. I deleted negative thoughts and began to utter words of positive thinking and praise to the universe. This is what got the ball rolling for me.
I posted a few comments on Facebook. Someone recommended The Secret to me. I got my hands on it and devoured it. Meanwhile, I had some major bills that were due and my water was going to get shut off. The universe provided the means for me to pay my water bill in full. I also was able to pay my day care bill in full. The more positive I put out there and the more forgiving I was, the more blessings started to pour in. I realized that the ‘instinct’ I had was exactly what “The Secret” was all about.
I changed my story. I am re-writing my life. I know who I am, I know what I want, and I made a list of qualities that my husband will have, to exhort me, to comfort me, to support me, and to never ever make me feel the way I did a few days ago. No one can do that to me anymore!! I am grateful for so many things and I know that my life is magnificent.