My period never came regularly, not from the first time. I thought it was normal because I had no other symptoms. About eight months ago, when I was 34 years old, I found out that I am PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome). That is, I hardly ovulate. I was very upset because that meant I was infertile, and that I might have uterus cancer when I am old.

To cure PCOS and to get pregnant, I had to take some medicine to trigger my ovulation. I took the medicine for six cycles and had IUI (intrautine insemination). They all failed! I didn’t conceive. I felt so sad. Every time my period came, I cried a lot.

This medicine can be used continuously no longer than six cycles, that’s why I had to stop it after the six cycles. I was so upset. It seemed that the world collapsed. I thought that I would never have a chance to be a mother.

I took contraceptive pills in the seventh cycle just to make my period come regularly so that I am not at risk of cancer in the long run.

My friend suggested me to read the book “The Secret” last month, during the time I was taking contraceptive pills. I read it and loved it so much. I dried my tears and tried my best to believe that I would be pregnant. It seemed impossible because I wasn’t taking the medicine to trigger my ovulation, and also I was taking contraceptive pills.

I like writing, and so I wrote every day a hundred times in my diary that: “I am going to be pregnant next month.” Why next month? Because I believed that it was impossible to get pregnant with no ovulation and with contraceptive pills.

However, I changed my mind. I tried to believe in a miracle. I wrote: “I am pregnant now,” every day during the end of the last month and the beginning of this month.

Contraceptive pills make a woman menstruate on time. But I didn’t menstruate on that day. I was surprised. “Am I really pregnant? Does The Secret really work in this first month?!”

That night I wrote down, “I am pregnant,” many times. In the morning I had a pregnancy test and found that I was really pregnant.

It was almost impossible. How can a PCOS woman like me ovulate without medicine? How can a woman, even without PCOS, get pregnant when she is on contraceptive pills?

I am very happy. Thank God for the little baby inside me. It’s a miracle.