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How The Universe Used My Worst Fear To Get Me A $36k Contract!
Submitted by: S. S.
California, USAI am a Black mother of 2 and business owner living in a country that doesn’t support or protect Black people.
Early last spring, in the middle of surviving the pandemic, the Universe told me it was time to move. I had been living in a space we had outgrown, next to noisy, rude neighbors I didn’t like in a neighborhood that felt hostile. Even so, I questioned ‘The Infinite Wisdom of The Universe’ because like you, sometimes I think I know better.
I said to the Universe, “Y’all realize there’s a pandemic going on right now. And you want me to look for housing?!?” So because I thought I knew better, I stayed there and didn’t look for alternatives.
Well of course things got worse. Despite all my visualizations of peace with my neighbors, I was forced to intervene when I heard abuse coming from their house. This lead to not only calling the police, which as a Black person in a racist America, I never want to do, but the cop who showed up had recently been involved in a well-known national case where white cops killed an unarmed Black man trying to enter his own home.
Needless to say I felt even more afraid and did not want to be put in the position where I felt compelled to call others for my safety. But still, it wasn’t a good time to move. So I made more excuses.
Then one of my worst fears happened. My kids were staying with their dad and I was all alone in my home. I had just returned from a morning walk. As I was preparing lunch, a nasty rat ran across my kitchen floor!!! Oh. Hell. No!
Of course this was when the skies were filled with smoke from NorCal fires so I had to be inside with that creature. I was terrified! I get my home professionally cleaned bimonthly so I knew it wasn’t because I kept a dirty house and I’d never had pests before.
Guess who was suddenly motivated to move in the middle of a pandemic?!
So I started packing but I had so many questions. I was in the middle of getting my business off the ground. I was broke as hell! How could I move? Where would I go? What was God doing? I didn’t know but I knew I couldn’t live with the possibility of rats.
My landlord did the needed repairs but I wasn’t going to push my luck. I made the necessary purchases to move and gave my landlord my notice. All while I had no idea where I was going to live. People don’t really want you on their couch during a deadly pandemic. I was prepared to live in my car or my mothers backyard because I knew once I closed one contract with my new business, I’d be doing well. I had total faith that I would be rewarded for finally being ‘obedient’. And at the same time, I was terrified. I would listen to gospel music full blast and scream affirmations through my tears. I had to be louder than my fear. People would ask where I was moving to and I would say, “The Universe hasn’t told me yet.” I kept waiting thinking today’s the day I would be told where the hell I was going!
The day of the move-out I was ready to drive back to my mom’s house and sleep in her driveway. Fortunately, not only was she kind enough to let me indoors, but we compliment each other perfectly. She has a lot of the equipment I need for my business and resources. She rarely eats but always has a fridge full of food. I offer her knowledge and an able body to assist her around the house. I act as a buffer between her and Covid. Her large 4 bedroom 2 bath house offers everything I was missing at my old place. Plenty of space, amenities and food. My mom eats like a bird!
The best part, besides not feeling alone, is a month after moving in, I closed my first deal for $36,000. Now I can live where I want! But for the time being, this is exactly where I want to be!
Keep the faith! Listen to your inner guidance even when you are full of doubt. Now I don’t have to wait for others to see my value. I don’t have to beg people for a job! I have a successful business and this is just the beginning!
I am so grateful for that disgusting rat and my disrespectful neighbors! That was the push I needed to live life on my terms. Now I’m paying off my mother’s house in gratitude for all her support. I know that money flows to me with ease, especially when I’m ‘obedient’!
Scream your affirmations if you have to. Whatever it takes to silence the fear.
Thank you Universe and community.