How I Overcame My Social Phobia.
Ever since I was a kid I had a lot of trouble making friends and talking to people. I was very, very shy, and every time a person talked to me I would kind of freak out and didn’t know what to say.
I had friends, not many, but a few. Still, I had some friends who I could not act very naturally with; I wasn’t able to maintain a “natural” and relaxed conversation with them.
I was very aware of what others might think of me. I thought I was a boring person. I thought I was not interesting to other people, though I kind of knew I was a pretty cool person. But I really had a tough time when it came to making friends and socializing.
During my school years, I was never truly, fully happy. I wasn’t alone but I felt I was. I had a few friends but at that time I wasn’t close enough to them. I cried a lot, I felt very, very lonely. I hated life because I wasn’t able to be relaxed when talking to other people and to have real and fun friendships.
Then, at the end of 2018, I hit rock bottom. The “social phobia” I had became worse than ever. Moreover, one of my closest friends just started ignoring me, and then I felt so horribly alone. I was in a relationship at that time with a guy I attracted using the law of attraction unknowingly, by the way. He was a person who I got along incredibly well with. And suddenly I couldn’t talk to him. Words just wouldn’t come out. I never knew what to say and I always felt like I had nothing to say.
For the first time in my life, I admitted to my mom that I had some kind of social phobia that was killing me. I think that recognizing and externalizing my problem helped me a lot.
I got into a horrible depression and I thought I would never be able to overcome my social phobia and to be confident and have good friendships. I stayed in bed all day, I cried a lot, I thought my boyfriend would get bored of me and dump me. I thought I would never be able to overcome this and that thought made me want to kill myself. But, I decided I would get out of this.
After twenty years, I was firmly determined to solve my problems, to overcome my social phobia and to become the person I truly was.
I had read The Secret. I re-read it. I started watching videos about the law of attraction on Youtube every day. I made this my priority. I made myself my top priority. Nothing else mattered to me. I even paused my college semester because I wasn’t able to focus on my studies anymore.
I don’t remember what I did exactly, but I did watch many videos on Youtube and read a lot of stories on this site. I was reading about the law of attraction all day, every day. I kept saying to myself: “You are going to get through this; this is just a temporary thing”. I got deeply into the LOA and positive thinking.
I started to do this “self-treatment” during October, I think. It was the only thing I was focusing on. By January 2019, I was another person. The relationship with my boyfriend became more amazing than ever. I started to feel, and to be, more confident. I talked more, I laughed more. 2019 was one of the best years of my life. I made friends, I was finally able to talk to people and actually enjoy it. I didn’t care anymore of what others may think. I became closer to my school friends. I made, and still do make people laugh.
Now I can say I am finally the me that was always hidden. I adore myself. I can talk a lot, I am not shy anymore, I get along with people, I have many good friends who adore me. I have never in my life been so confident and happy.
I think that what really helped me was to “diagnose” my problem and to have a real and firm determination of getting through it. I literally said to myself: “You are going to “cure” yourself, you are going to solve this problem forever”. The positive thinking was also key.
The law of attraction works. This was a problem I had carried my entire life, for twenty years, a problem I always thought I would never get through. I self-treated myself with the law of attraction.
Thank you so much for publishing such amazing books such as The Secret and The Magic. They have helped more than anything. Keep the faith because anything is possible.