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Submitted by: Teresa Hilliar
Farnborough, United KingdomI am a mother to an amazing 8 year old boy who has so much love and compassion and a wonderful supportive husband. I believe in angels and a higher being, what or who that is I don't know, an energy that created us all, not a man sitting on a cloud.
My mum and dad split up when I was about 3 years old, I lived with my mum and 2 sisters. We were pretty poor and sometimes avoided the man coming to collect the money from the electricity meter, that’s a big thing that I remember.
My mum then went on to meet this man called John. I was about 6 years old at the time. He turned out to be very violent, but I think she must of felt the need to provide for us 3 girls so she went on and secretly married him! We were not at the wedding.
He would beat her on a regular occurrence and we all lived in fear, my mum slept with a knife under her pillow, some days she would lock him out of the house but he would just break the door down and come in anyway. I remember coming down stairs one morning to seeing the glass coffee table smashed where he had threatened her with smashing it over her head, but I recall her getting brave to him and telling him to do it. But being the bully he was, as soon as someone stood up to him he didn’t go ahead, instead he smashed it on the wall.
Well fast forward a few years and I won’t go into some other stuff that happened as that is not my own story. New Year’s Eve 1984 I said goodbye to my mum who looked lovely for her night out down at the pub with her husband. My sisters were looking after me as I was only 11 years old and they were a few years older. We were all a sleep when there was a lot of noise and shouting, not unusual, but I hear a big scream and my older sister gets dressed very quickly and runs out of the house as the noise is coming from up the road.
I was trying to get ready as fast I could, but not fast enough as my Step father came in and said “I’ve just killed your Mum”, then grabs his son who was staying with us and legs it out of the house into his car and drives off. I then found out my step father had found out my mum was having an affair with a neighbor and had gone to the house to confront her, tried to strangle her, left and returned with a kitchen knife from our kitchen and stabbed her 13 times!!
My mum past away that evening, the morning of New Years Day 1985.
That was my childhood but through that it has given me great compassion and love for others. I feel other’s pain and can empathize easily with them. I have been on a healing path for many years trying to come to terms with what happened and the loss I will never get back. I have read many many self help and spiritual books, my mum was very spiritual which is why it gave me comfort I think, to begin with.
Well a few years back I read The Power as a friend bought it for me and it was brilliant. Then two years ago on a New Years Day I was getting very worked up about something my step son had done and I remember thinking “Do you really want your New Year to start on this note”. No I didn’t.
I happened to go to the library and I came across The Secret, and having read The Power I recognized Rhonda’s name so I took the book to read.
Well that was one of the best things I have ever done in my life! It started me on the life of Gratitude and I feel it is the most important thing to change my life! I know I have done other things Reiki, and other healing which has helped, but this reminds me on a daily basis to change my thoughts, to be grateful for everything.
I restarted The Magic as well and that is how I am now living my life. My life may have started off sad and of course I miss my mum terribly and wish she was here to meet my beautiful son. But I can also have gratitude for what I do have and all the amazing people who I love and love me, for my passion of creating, for the ability to see the beauty all around me every day.
And now after doing this practice I really feel it in my heart center when I say the words; Thank you, thank you, thank you! I can feel it resonating and vibrating when I say those words. So I want to say to you Rhonda, thank you, thank you, thank you for all the love and gratitude you have brought into this world.