My Ex-boyfriend and I are on and off, and I often find myself bouncing back and forth with my thoughts. Whenever we try to work at the relationship, I find myself complaining about the negative points, and not letting go of the past. I had to sit myself down and understand why we are not on the same page. By reading other people’s experiences, I realised that I wasn’t thinking of moving forward and forgetting the past!

I try my very best to follow The Secret, but at times I forget to do so. When I catch myself losing faith, or thinking negative thoughts, I immediately try to reverse it. When I bounce back, I amaze myself to see what power I hold. Applying The Secret is like traing for a new job, and with time, you automatically think & speak ‘the language’.

I sometimes blame myself for the relationship not being where it should be, because I may not always be consistant with my thoughts. I began to have doubts, so I put The Secret on my night table and I read it every night. I open the book to a random page, and it always falls on the perfect page which helps me with my struggles.

One night, after a few days of being sad, I began to have doubts about The Secret (yes, shame on me!). That night I opened the book to the “feather” situation, so I decided to try it out. I thought about his mother. I couldn’t understand how she did not try to contact me ater all this time. I imagined her calling me and within a few days, I recieved a phone call from her! She said that I am constantly on her mind, and she hoped for me to return her call. This was truly a message from the universe, telling me not to give up, to have faith, to ask, to believe, and to act as if it is already mine.

His mother and I spoke, and I opened up about my greatest anxieties. His mother who is very religious, and understands my point of view, told me the following words “What did Jesus say to do? Did Jesus not say to forgive people? Did Jesus not forgive 100 times? When people ask for forgiveness, Jesus does not let him down, regardless of the amount of times forgivess has been asked”. From my analysis, if you replace the word ” Jesus” with “universe”, it becomes the same. The power of your faith brings you what you ask for, when you ask for it.

Furthermore, I see how I constantly focus on the negative parts of the relationship. By changing my thoughts and writing down the positive points, I believe that the universe will place us where we need to be. It’s a matter of being consistant with your thoughts. I realise that my relationship is on and off, because MY thoughts about us are on & off. I am not clear with what I want, so how can the universe give me what I want?! Today is July 20, 2010 and though I still have not reached the happy ending of my story, I promise to write to you when this is worked out!