He Came Back.
I had been in a 3 year relationship. I had let a lot of doubts get in my head and it created trust issues and constant fighting. Needless to say, he had enough. He broke up with me and I had to move out of our apartment. At first I tried whatever to distract myself but I always ached in my heart for him. I couldn’t stop thinking of how I lost someone who loved me and I loved, all because of my insecurities. He never asked me to change but I was always asking for him to show me and tell me how much he loved me. I realized it was because I was trying to get him to fill my heart when I should have loved myself. I knew that I had these problems and resolved to try something new.
Fast forward 6 months, I was still thinking of him, still missing him. I reached out for a friendship. I figured that if I still felt this way then there’s a possibility he felt the same and I could feel out the situation. He confessed how much he missed me but was afraid of getting hurt by me again and couldn’t take the constant fighting.
This time is different, I know I will be better. We are taking it day by day and I am focusing on the love versus the worries. I want you to know that everyone has those little negative thoughts in their head that says you can’t do something or you aren’t lovable. Those thoughts push away happiness in your life. If you can focus on the things that bring you happiness and gratitude, you can choose a better, happier path. Don’t have too much pride and go after what your heart desires. I know the love is still there and I am working on me, because that will help us. Please believe that you are worthy of love, you deserve happiness.