He Came Back Again.
My story begins when I came home from college for the weekend. A young man wanted to meet me when I got back as we had met through a girl I went to college with. We chatted online a bit. In all honesty, I didn’t want to meet him. Looking through his Facebook pictures, I didn’t think I’d be interested. I worked as a demonstrator at our local grocery store. One day while chatting online, he explained that he’d seen me once at work. I don’t know why, but something told me that was a starting point of something, so we decided to meet. My friend and I met him at the local bar. While there, he was drunk and came up to me. There was another girl there as well. I didn’t like what I saw, so my friend and I bailed. I told myself if he apologizes, I’ll forgive him and give him a chance. If he didn’t, I never wanted to talk again.
Low and behold the next day, I got an apology. We hung out again and at first, I judged him and his character until he finally seemed to want what I wanted in life. I went back to college for the week. We talked and when I came back that weekend, I fell for him hard. We were together for a while until things fell apart. He has his insecurities and I had severe depression. We were failing not because we didn’t love each other but because we needed to find ourselves. We ended things, then got back together, then ended things a couple months later. I was so torn. I graduated college, hoping I’d see him out there, but no. After a few weeks, we talked again. We seemed to start getting back together.
That’s when I picked up The Secret. I loved how I felt reading the book. I watched the movie too. It made sense. Unfortunately, I didn’t follow it the way I should have, and we got into a major fight, resulting in us not talking again. He met someone a week later. I didn’t know until after my birthday a couple weeks later. I was crushed, because I knew it was the end. My depression was so bad, I wanted to take my life.
My brother saved me, telling me he loved me and that I meant the world to him. That is what changed me. I knew I’d be okay. In the time after the fight, I read all The Secret books and practiced The Magic book. In November, him and the girl ended things. I reached out, but I wasn’t ready at that time to let him back into my life. I loved him, but I knew I hadnt changed, nor had he.
We didn’t talk again for 9 months. In that time, he had found someone else, and I was slowly but surely moving on, loving myself and seeing someone else, nothing serious. I still loved him, but after a while, I let go. I used The Secret on other thing’s but I still hoped.
Then in May, I began dreaming of him every night. It bothered me because I felt I’d accepted everything and here I am having dreams of him. I was on this dating site called Tinder, and found him on there. I swiped left, which meant that I didn’t like him or want to talk. I wasn’t going to swipe right and become hurt when it didn’t say mutual match.
June came and I was eating with my best friend at a resturaunt. We looked at Tinder on my cell phone. He popped up again. My best friend took my phone out of my hands and pressed ‘like’ on him. I looked at her,wondering why she did that when all of a sudden, I looked down and it was a mutual match. I couldn’t believe it. After everything we went through, it was a match. I knew he’d begin talking to me. Sure enough, he did. We hung out a couple times and then he asked if I’d go on a big trip with him. At first, I said no because I didn’t want to get hurt again, plus I couldn’t afford it. Then he said he’d pay for most of it. I agreed to go. It was miraculous as we never talked so long.
I’d love to say it’s easy to follow The Secret, but it does take work. I love the results though! I want to get back together, but the Universe will arrange that when the time is right. I am changed, I’ve found happiness in myself, and I’m growing every day. I love him and won’t give up, and this time I also love myself. Things will work out, no matter what, I just know it! Thank you!