Happiness On A New Level
I always wanted to be tall like my dad. Well, maybe not as tall as him because I’m a girl, but close enough. So when all the other girls at school were racing to the sky with height, I expected the same to happen to me. But it didn’t.
It always made me insecure and sad to be short, or at least shorter than I wanted to be (I was 5ft 4). I used to hope and pray and plead to grow taller. I even used The Secret (or tried) for years. I measured my height everyday for a long, long time and every time it showed what I didn’t want, I got sadder and more frustrated. People would tease me for being short, even though I wasn’t nearly as short as some of the other girls in my grade. I guess I was attracting the teasing by thinking I was too short myself.
What made it worse, is that I want to be a model. I can’t explain why, I just have the passion. I’m more of an academic, even when it comes to theater which I also love. I think scientifically, and I even want to study to be an engineer so it doesn’t really add up to the stereotypical dumb model (which I don’t think is true because it takes serious smarts and hard work to make it in such a competitive industry). But nevertheless, it’s what I want. But at 5ft 4, it looked like it would never happen.
I turned 18 a few months ago and I figured all hope was gone. I tried to hold on and persevere, I even took up swimming to try and lengthen my limbs. It wasn’t until I took a step back and faced the fact that I could be that height for the rest of my life. I didn’t want to hate myself or be insecure forever. I wanted to be happy regardless and so I was.
I sort of got over it. It was something I still wanted, but I decided to be happy without it. It took me a long time to convince myself that I was happy at 5ft 4, but it’s been worth it. I let it go a little, and I grew an inch in about two months. Got over it a bit more (because I was happier an inch taller) and in another month I grew another inch. Now in a little bit less than another month later, I am 5ft 7 and I’m over joyed. My goal height it 5ft 9, for modeling, but even at this height I’m really, really happy and I could still make it!
You have to let go and let God. Thank you so much for revealing The Secret.