From The Gutter To The Roof.
After having a traumatic experience in my life I found myself laying on a hospital bed with multiple stab wounds and doctors running around me. In that very moment of pure chaos and madness, life became a freeze-frame. I could see the nurse trying to fill the hole in my stomach and I asked her if I was going to die. She looked back at me with a very sad expression and attempted to smile and said no. I didn’t believe her one bit but she tried her best.
When you are close to death people say that your life flashes before your eyes. That did not happen for me. Instead, I went through a reel of my life’s moments. These moments happened to be all the big events in my life that I feel made me who I am. From my father leaving when I was young, punching a school teacher who got me kicked out of school, my mum leaving me in a police station, my sister crying, the death of family members, to all the hurt I caused with my lifestyle choices. They all just reeled through from start to finish and all I remember thinking was that life is way too short. All the hatred I held for others, all the misery I caused because of the chip on my shoulder. My damaged soul trying to sabotage everyone else around me so they felt my pain. It was all so negative.
I made a deal with myself at that moment, that I would change if I live through this and I will be a better person. I will make people happy, not sad, I will become a person that people can look up to instead of a person that people fear. I will have people around because they love me, not because they are afraid of me.
I did survive by the skin of my teeth. If the knife blade had gone in 3 mm either way I would have bled out and died on the scene. The knife was so close to my kidney that it cut it but didn’t puncture it and the doctor said the fat on my stomach saved my life. Who said sugar wasn’t good for you?
I knew that I now had a purpose. I was nursed back to health by my adopted mum who is my angel and my rock. In a matter of weeks, I was up and limping around with a walking stick. I then moved back into my flat as I could get myself around. It was there when I was watching Netflix that I discovered the documentary called “The Secret“. I had to watch it. The Secret movie was exciting and amazing and I just knew this was meant for me. I knew at that moment that I was going to be okay. From that day on my life changed completely.
I went from being a horrible, drug dealing thug to an inspired entrepreneur. I slowly started rebuilding relationships with family members I had not seen for 10 years. I got away from the negative energy. I slowly starting building a legitimate business and before I knew it, was living with my birth mother again for a year. I had nice friends around me instead of negative ones. I had fewer people around me that feared me and more people around me that loved me and were real friends.
Fast forward another 2.5 years. I now live a happy, positive life. I am a successful businessman with property, family, healthy relationships and I am happy. I have a positive drive in me that never stops. My best friend is someone that I could never have dreamed of being friends with in the past. I truly believe my life changed after watching The Secret and fully believing it. I had so many manifestations. I don’t need to bore you with all of them but if I said I was going to do it, it happened.
Every meal I say what I am grateful for. Every morning I looked in the mirror and tell my reflection what I am attracting to myself. Every day when I am driving I shout out what I am attracting. Every time I go to bed I think about how grateful I am for what I have and for what’s coming my way.
Believe and you will receive. Just because something doesn’t happen straight away or instantly doesn’t mean it’s not on its way. Did you ever drive the wrong way by accident on your way to a destination? You don’t then decide to just not go, you work your way back to where you were going. Sometimes when everything felt like it was going wrong, it was because the Universe was moving things out of the way to get through. If I stood and focused on the door that was closed I would not see the door that had just been opened for me. That’s the best bit. When ever something goes wrong in my life, I get a little stressed of course but then I get excited because I know what’s coming next!
I wish you all the best. Help where you can and help will find you.