I had a best friend whom I had been friends with for 23 years. Yes, my entire life. We had only fought about once or twice in our entire lives, but nothing major had ever happened until a few months ago. Things started to get a little rocky and it got scary. We were so close and I didn’t know what I would do without her. At the same time, it seemed like our lives were going in circles. We werent really progressing in our own lives. Something had to change.
Skip ahead to about a month ago, we decided mutually to maybe just give each other space. We didn’t talk for an entire month. During that month, I remained positive, went out with other friends. Yes I missed her, but I knew I had a life to live and dreams to fulfill. And I wasn’t ashamed to say that I was having fun! And so many doors were opening for me.
About a day ago she contacted me, a little hostile, asking how I could throw away a 23 year friendship. Also stating that she wanted bygones to be bygones, but I felt the issue was deeper than that. I texted her and told her that I couldnt speak to her because I didnt know what to say so I would write her a letter. She was angry.
I ended up writing a five page letter to her and mailed it. I prayed over it and poured all my love into it. God, my heart and my intuition were telling me that we just can’t be in each others lives right now, we dont have enough focus when were together and my parents had been telling me that for awhile, but I had to come to know this on my own. It hurts to think that she may hate me for awhile because she doesn’t understand, but at the same time I feel such a sense of serenity.
I know we’ll be friends again in a late time. We just need to get our lives together first. I continue to fill myself with love and positivity every day, and maybe thats why I’m not as sad as I thought I would be. 🙂
Thank you Universe for speaking to me and letting events happen at their perfect timing.