FOR MY DARLING MOTHER
All of my life, some forty-odd years, I never felt connected with my mother. When I was a teenager, we had many serious arguments, and as I got older, I just never felt I was close to her. At various points in my life, I even stopped communicating with her.
As she grew older and began to lose her eyesight, I really felt that I needed to fix our strained relationship.
After reading The Secret, I was writing some things about gratitude and decided to write down all the things for which I was grateful to her: the lovely dresses she sewed for me when I was a young girl, the great vegetables she grew for us all, the way she always tended to our huge garden, and so on. As I recognized these things, I felt a huge surge of gratitude for all her hard work and caring over the years.
After that, I wrote in my notebook, “I want a happy, calm, and trusting relationship with Mum.” Having written that, I felt a new sense of peace about her. I hadn’t actually spoken to her for about a year, and I decided to go for a visit.
When I saw her, everything between us had changed. There was no tension, no holding back. I told her about some of the difficulties I’d had in my life, and she, who had never hugged me before, offered hugs, love, and support. Never in my life had I felt this type of mother-love. It was truly a special moment in my life.
I phone Mum every week now, and we talk to each other the way I always wanted. There is just this love between us that I cannot describe in words.