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Finding My Purpose.
Submitted by: RE NZ _ SA
SOUTH AUCKLANDI am a 30 year old Maori female. Born and raised in South Auckland.
At a young age, I was sexually abused; by the age of 16, I was an alcoholic. I had been through girls’ homes and youth jails, and I was a very troubled young girl. I suffered from anxiety, fear, and depression. To me, my happy place was drinking alcohol. I lost myself before even knowing myself. I turned cold and dark. I was angry at the world and didn’t trust many people. I was so closed off as a human and didn’t trust anyone to come into my life. I pushed away all those who had loved me and wanted me to be better.
At the age of 19, I met my kids’ father. Although I had my walls up, for some reason, I felt a sense of trust from within my heart towards him. I fell in love with him before knowing who he was, and during our relationship, it started to get abusive and very toxic.
I lost my children, have been incarcerated, and was a drug addict. While I was in prison, the library had the book The Power, which I found very interesting to read. It allowed me to learn how to manifest and showed me what manifestation was all about. It taught me how to know that what we give is what we get back..
After reading The Power, I found myself always saying thank you to the Universe. I have now come to realize that for me, God and Jesus are my highest powers who create all things, including the Universe. So now I say thank you to God for everything that happens in my life, whether it be lessons or blessings. This allowed me to also be grateful for all the things that I have in my life and for allowing myself to have peace and closure from my past traumas. I just love the books, as they have helped me from things I never thought I could ever overcome.