Faith, Trust And A Little Magic Dust.
Not long ago, I had posted about my love story with a guy, ‘J’, with whom a flowering relationship abruptly came to a pause because he was not ready to take things ahead.
This had set in motion the biggest revelation and gift of my life, that of self love. I started taking care of myself, loving myself, being kind to myself, meditating, exercising, and practicing positive affirmations. Basically placing my faith and trust in the Universe that had gotten J and me together in the first place.
Not for once did I let doubt enter my mind that J was not returning or that this equation was over. All I knew was that all had happened for a reason. It was for me to discover myself and love myself before I could expect anyone else to do that.
All this while my faith in the fact that J was coming back never wavered. I knew what I felt for him was from my heart and from a very pure place.
One day when I was in a great mood I decided to give him a call, just to say ‘Hi’. It had been a long time since we had spoken. He missed the call and then messaged me saying that he had been busy with work. This continued for the entire week. What was amazing though was that I did not mind this at all. A few months ago, I would have turned anxious wondering why he was not calling. This time I just accepted that he was busy and would get back to me. What I was also sure of was that there was a reason the phone conversation was not happening right away. I was sure this was preparation for a better and more meaningful conversation the next time we spoke. I was in such a positive space. J went on messaging, saying how caught up he was and I just accepted that.
Then one day I decided to take myself out on a ‘date’. When J and I had been initially talking I had decided to meet him at this specific cafe and even decided what to wear. Since that meeting with J never happened, I decided to treat myself the same way. I wore the clothes I had intended to and enjoyed my time there. It was a fabulous date and all through it I visualised J sitting with me and us enjoying a romantic date together. I was really happy. I even went to my college, the place where J and I had met for the first time, and expressed gratitude for having introduced us. I was so sure something very beautiful was manifesting in my life.
Two days later, J called. He apologized for not having called me earlier since he had been busy. He then went on to say something that just reaffirmed what I already knew, with God nothing is impossible.
This is what he said “I know Divya, that we have not been speaking for the last few days. I have given a lot of thought to all that I told you over that call. I know I told you that we are only friends and that I have no feelings for you. I have a confession to make. I was not being fully honest with you. The fact is that I do have very strong romantic feelings for you. It is just that I had been feeling a little overwhelmed with the intensity of emotions that you were feeling and I felt I was not in a position to reciprocate. I thought that would apply the brakes to my emotions. I was mistaken, Divya. I am so sorry for the hurt I caused you. I have given this a lot of thought and I have realised that what we have has the potential to grow into something very beautiful. I have thought over this Divya and I know that I am giving this another chance. This time at a serious relationship. I am all in. I am very attracted to you and I do see ourselves in a great relationship. You do not have to tell me anything right away. I can understand if this has taken you by surprise but I would love to know what you think.”
As he was talking I had a slight smile on my face. It was a feeling of ‘knowing’. A feeling that I had carried ever since I had re-connected with him. I was very happy that all this was happening the way it was. This was divine timing. Both of us had worked on our individual issues and were becoming the best versions of ourselves. The relationship that we are building comes from a very pure and happy intent and not out of a feeling of void.
Today J and I are building a beautiful, loving relationship together.
I always turn to the Universe for guidance and my prayers always get answered. It takes a special kind of blessing to be able to experience such profound moments.
Thank you for The Magic. I want to express my gratitude to all of you, for posting your stories here. They kept me going in moments of despair.
All I can say is what I needed was some self-love and a lot of faith. Faith moves mountains.
Thank you, thank you, thank you.