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Epilepsy doesn’t control me, I control it.
Submitted by: Gabby S
Hertfordshire, UKI am 19 years old who suffers from epilepsy, I finally found The Secret and it has transformed my life. I am a much more positive person for it and my epilepsy has improved. It's a wonderful, magical life.
I’m 19 years old. What do most 19 year olds want to do? Pass their driving test? Go to clubs with their friends? And drink? I’m not the kind of girl that needs a drink to enjoy myself, in fact when people meet me they think I am drunk because I am so loud and bubbly. I’m 19 and suffer from a form of epilepsy; I am very lucky that I can say mine is a mild form but no matter how mild or severe it still stops us from near enough all the same things.
I don’t drive. It’s not because I don’t want to its because I’m not allowed to. When I was younger me and my best friend would walk to the corner shop and everyday we would go past a cream mini. I said “Nina, that’s the car I want when I am older.” Little did I know that I would be in this siutation. I can’t go to clubs because of strobe lighting either; once again, not the end of the world but it matters to me.
I used to be so negative all the time about my epilepsy, I used to just dwell on it all the time. There is this band I know and when I go see them and my friends I am 100% unconditionally happy. But I never watched them because of their strobe lighting. After reading the secret it made me want to be positive about things, get anything negative out of my life and so I had to make sure I could find a positive in this. My epilepsy had put me down then I realised I made it worse for myself because that was all I ever spoke about or thought about. Now I have been more positive about it, I am happier in myself and my epilepsy has improved drastically.
Anyways, I will not let my epilepsy put me down or stop me from so much anymore. I will have 1 or 2 drinks, I know my limits and I am extremely careful. I’ve realised you can’t let the illness control You, You need to control it.
I went to my hospital appointment the other day and my doctor said “You don’t drive, but you want to right? Lets put you on this medication and see if it can stop the seizures and maybe you can start driving.” That was honestly the most exciting information my doctor has ever said to me. I never thought I would be able to and I cried so much about it and now It may go away! NO, it has gone away, its going away right now. So I am going to try the new medication to see if it does work- if it doesn’t I will not cry about it because I know it is going away and I will be driving the cream mini of my dreams.
I just wanted people to know that if you do suffer from epilepsy or another illness, don’t be disheartened about the things people say you ‘cannot’ do because of it. Take their advice and make sure you do everything within your power to be safe but do not let it control you. You control it. You cannot give up everything because of it; you need to have a balance but most importantly compromise by keeping safe. Don’t let it make you cry because then you’re putting so much of your energy on it that you will never get rid of it. I believe mine is going away and even if it didn’t having belief in something makes it that much easier to cope with. I have no doubt in it though and neither should you.
Stay Sweet,
Gabby