I Don’t Know How But I Have Faith!
Hi there beautiful people! I hope this story inspires you in some way and especially for all the youngsters stressing about what on earth they are going to do about their future and all the scariness that seems to come with growing up.
So I recently finished high school and I had a very clear idea of what I wanted for the next four years. I had recently moved back from New Zealand and all I had to do was finish school and get into the University I had been wanting to attend for 2 years. Lucky for me the Universe had other plans!
As soon as I finished I went into a full time job for my father’s company as well as maintaining my part time job on the weekends. The plan was to continue this until the beginning of 2018 when I would be going off to the University of my dreams. This was not good for my mental state at all, working all the time and hating my full time job but desperately not wanting to let my dad down. This all eventually came crashing down on me when I didn’t get the response I wanted from the University. They wanted me to write more tests. It crushed me. I truly believed I would get straight in and I thought that I had been using The Secret to help me achieve this.
However at around the same time all of this was going down, two beautiful things happened. I hadn’t made any close friends since my return, which I thought was a good thing because I was going straight off to University. But the Universe had another more beautiful plan. In the last few months of school, I met the most beautiful girl and we became best friends. It turned out we had a lot in common and she became one of my favorite people as she supported me through my struggles in these last couple of months. I never expected to make such a good friend, a sister if you will and I love her dearly.
Then an absolute miracle happened. I had never had a boyfriend my whole life and I’m sure it’s because I have absolutely high standards. I never wanted to settle for some silly teenage fling and I had a very clear list of what I wanted in a partner and a relationship and I believed the Universe would provide this person, but not right now! I somehow managed to meet the most amazing guy even though I was working all the time. He ticked every box of what I wanted in a boyfriend and more. We like the same weird films, we share music constantly. He even introduced me to his parents in the first week we were seeing each other. He’s fantastically funny because he doesn’t take himself too seriously and he talks more than me. And big bonus, he’s vegan! It is it is really hard to find young vegan guys.
Anyway, things were not going according to plan, even the good stuff. And so I watched The Secret again. I finally got some clarity! In all of this insane planning I had forgotten that deep down, what I really want is to be a free spirit and I’m not actually ready to leave my parents again. I want my life to be fun and beautiful and adventurous and full of laughter and people I love and going off to university isn’t in line with all these things I want so much more! The Universe knows this.
To cut a long story short, I’m leaving my full time job that I hate at the end of this week. My friend from Germany is coming the week after and we are jetting off on a safari and going to Cape Town and the week after that I’m going to the Mozambique coast with my boyfriend. I have started writing a book which I have been wanting to do for the longest time. My boyfriend and I are also planning a trip to Bali in November and most importantly, my courage and positivity have been restored to go after what my heart desires and not worry and stress about disappointing my parents. I know deep down that the Universe will take care of me and my life will be amazing when I stay aligned with my dreams and I feel good!
I have no idea what the next few years have in store for me or how I’m going to make everything work but I know, like I know, like I know that it will all work out perfectly! I will be the person I know I am deep inside and the Universe will be my best friend as I enjoy the journey of watching my dreams manifest before my eyes and living the life that I know I deserve!