I Didn’t Know We Had Already Met.
I was dating a guy for almost three years. Throughout the whole relationship, I always felt unsure, yet we both showed that we loved each other. We broke up last year. I could tell he loved me in some type of way but in the end, only cared about what he wanted. However, I also brought toxic things into the relationship because I was always depressed and very emotional. I loved him, I really did and we were getting to the point where we had dated long enough in order to make a decision. I wanted some type of engagement, I wanted to start thinking about marriage and a family. I wanted to move out of my parent’s house and into a place of my own. I also finished up college and he was about to as well. We were definitely in a place where if we wanted to jump, we could, and we would be fine. He didn’t want any of those things.
Two weeks after our break up, I discovered meditation, the law of attraction and of course, The Secret. After a month of meditation, my four-year depression vanished just like that. I became a better person, stopped hating myself, and started becoming thankful and grateful for everything I had. A lot of things slowly started improving in my life, but today, I want to talk about one.
It is absolutely hard to get over an ex. For almost a whole year I did everything I could to “get back my ex.” I stayed as positive as I could. I truly believed that I loved myself, and yet, nothing was happening. I even asked the angels for signs, and every time, I always got my answer loud and clear that “he was the one.”. I didn’t talk to my ex for a long time. He did everything in his power to push me away and ignore me. Throughout the year, I texted him about three times.
A month ago I realized that I was drained and tired. I didn’t want to cry, have hope, or even think about my ex anymore. I asked my angels if I should contact him and I woke up feeling that it was time to do so. You see, I truly love this guy and I realized that all the other times, I was thinking about myself and if he would ever take me back. This day was also a very empowering one because I finally felt the burden of thinking of him, being lifted off my chest.
So, I took a deep breath and texted him. We had a happy text message conversation back and forth for about three days. Then I finally asked him if we could meet up and talk so I could have closure but it’s sad to say he never replied. I told myself that I would be fine if I didn’t get an answer.
But here’s the fun part. I still tried to maintain my happiness. I created a vision board of everything I wanted that would make me happy. I started having fun with it and put words like “kiss,” “let’s go places,” and “happily ever after” on it. I even wrote in my journal of what I wanted in a guy. Keep in mind that I really thought my ex was the one and I really truly believed 100% that he would come back to me.
Only one and a half days after I wrote down the specific qualities of what I wanted in a guy, I got a random urge to text my old college friend from school. I always did this every once in a while, but it had almost been a year since we talked to each other.
We started texting back and forth for hours and stayed up until the early a.m. doing so. We had never done this before. He asked me if I wanted to go hiking the next day, and thinking absolutely nothing of it, I said yes. I was just excited that I got to hang out with one of my old pals.
As we walked through the woods, we started connecting and bonding more and more. He was still the same person that I went to school with, but a lot more mature than before. In school we did bond, and we were great friends where he would make me constantly laugh. Those four years ago I did notice that we had a lot in common, but I found that I wasn’t as physically attracted to him. We were also both dating someone at the time, but I never in my life thought that we would have bonded so well the day we did in the woods.
Fast forward two days later, our connection grew. I spiritually felt something between us. We both had the same humor, the same thought process, and he had all the exact qualities in a guy that I had wrote down in my journal and prayed for every day. To add the cherry on top, he also believed in the Universe and is somewhat spiritual! Something my ex was closed off to. The only “problem” that the Universe did not grant me was his physical appearance. I like guys that are taller than me with dark hair and an athletic build. The Universe gave me a guy with bright blond hair, bright blue eyes, and someone who was the same height as me. However, I soon realized that this guy had a gorgeous smile, and once he shaved his beard down a little, I fell in love.
We’ve been dating for two and a half weeks but I will tell you that it feels like we’ve been dating for at least six months! I would also like to say that since dating him, things on my vision board like “kiss,” “let’s go places,” and even pictures of smiles and surprises have come true. He takes me where I want, he surprises me and he brings me flowers when I least expect it. I’m tearing up right now writing this because months ago when I would write to the Universe, I would put “he brings me flowers when I least expect it.”
I want everyone to know that this old friend who is now my boyfriend, came into my life right after I let the energies of wanting my ex, go. It did take me a year to let my ex go, which seems like a long time, but listen when I say to take your time and just go with it. It’s hard, but once time heals your wounds, you’ll be fine. I one hundred percent know that right after I did this, the Universe brought the right guy to me. There’re also synchronicity on my boyfriend’s end that aligned with the right timing for us to re-meet.
During my whole year of trying very hard to get over my ex, I wrote a gazillion times of what I wanted in a guy, how I wanted it to happen, and initially, my ex was the one I wrote about. It’s crazy for me to even fathom that a guy with all the qualities that I wanted popped up during the right time. I’ve read a lot of stories that are similar to mine where a woman meets an old friend and they fall in love, but believe me, I never would have thought this would have happened to me!
Another thing I wanted to add for anyone who is reading this is, it was a very difficult journey for me. I loved my ex, and I still have a love for him but obviously I moved on. Some months were very hard for me. Even the month that led me to meet my now current boyfriend, there were days where I would cry and feel like crap, but I always thanked the Universe, got up and made myself happier somehow. You don’t have to be bouncing off the walls happy but you need to at least be thankful for what you have. I will also say that when I could feel my urge and need for my ex boyfriend almost completely fade, that’s when I gave up and started thanking the Universe for my current boyfriend. I already acted like he had walked into my life by simply giving gratitude for ten things daily and always slipping in how thankful I was for a funny, romantic, caring, and understanding guy. I’m sorry if I keep repeating myself, but that’s what the Universe gave me! Down to a tee!