Despair to Joy……….
As an adult I was lost in depression and despair. My childhood was filled with the kind of abuse you wouldn’t want to imagine. My life was a series of nothing but negative messages. I left home very young with nothing but the clothes on my back to lead a life on the street marked by poverty and despair, but it was better than home. I knew nothing of The Secret, positive thinking or good mental hygiene. I was barely surviving.
After I left home the few brushes I had with my family were so unpleasant and costly that I broke off all ties with them by the time I was 18. Mentally, emotionally, spiritually and financially I just couldn’t afford them. But for some reason, perhaps because I was an avid reader, I kept believing that I could have a better life and be a better person. At first all I wanted was to survive. But then I wanted more. I believed that if I could try hard enough I could make it happen. The Secret was already working for me and I didn’t even know that it existed!
I wanted to go to college. Imagine that. A skinny, 100 lb, 18 year old, chain smoking, drug using, dish washer was going to go to college. Guess what? A lot of the “rich kids” I worked with were going to college and university. They showed me how I could make it happen. So I went to college. Did I attract them into my life? You tell me.
Still I was not happy. My personal relationships, my health and my finances – I had a lot of problems, but I kept on. I became a fitness advocate, a long distance runner, and a weight lifter.
When I was 25 I was the only person in my family who was not on drugs and not smoking, but still something was missing. I didn’t know what it was. I only knew that I was miserable and my life was out of control.
I had always let the “demons from the past” rule my life. The negative messages tortured me. I accomplished some of my goals by but I was loosing my dreams. Then one day I was invited to a viewing of “The Secret”. It all began to fall into place. I learned something valuable. I learned that I needed to control and filter my thoughts, after all, look at what the “Miracle Man” had accomplished!
I had many dreams. I had always wanted to learn how to sail and I wanted my own sailboat. I wanted to be a serious writer, and I wanted to learn how to be happy.
For six months I watched “The Secret” everyday (I still do!). I love Bob Proctor. I started to practice and use the principals of “The Secret”. That was 2 years ago. Guess what? I have a sailboat – a Contessa 26 called the “Wind Witch” (she has an inboard diesel engine). And I sail her! I was invited to join a writers club of serious writers and you know what…..I’m good. And I am learning to be happy.
To all of you who participated in The Secret……I swear …..you are doing God’s Work!!!!! Thank you and Bless you.