Dare to Dream
I have always been a very spiritual person and knew it from the time I was at least 7-years-old. Sadly, my journey through life has always been difficult, but at my own hands. I can say that now but I was never able to say or feel that way before reading and watching The Secret.
I have always known that there was a strong purpose in my life but I had absolutely no clue to what that may be. Having my children was the first defining moment in my life in the sense of understanding that I was now living for a purpose. I have recently found out when my older son was ready to go to college how living my life and defining my accomplishments solely from the perspective of being a mom was a wake-up call.
I never thought ahead to the time that I would have to let go and start living my life for myself. It didn’t matter that I went back to school when my children were toddlers and became a teacher. It didn’t matter that I went back to school and got my Master’s Degree in Psychology; and it doesn’t matter that I am in the process of completing my PhD in Clinical Psychology shortly. I have not found inner peace and no job or amount of education will fulfil that missing piece.
The summer prior to my son going away to school I fell into a deep depression. I felt as if my life was over and that my purpose was gone (even though my younger son is only 16 and still under my care). I have always been a negative person who never thought much of me. As a teacher I have been extremely unhappy.
So, here is where The Secret has impacted my life and I know will continue to do so as I continue to grow and learn to change all the negativity I draw upon myself. I have been on anti-depressants, mood-stabilizers, anti-anxiety medications; you name it and I was on it. Since The Secret entered my life, I am no longer on medication. It can at times be a struggle but I have taught myself to be grateful every day for all the good things in my life.
I quit my job and I am not in the least bit worried about money. I have created a vision book, that I keep in my nightstand and every night before bed I look through it make it the last visions I have in my mind when I fall asleep. I already feel the changes in the sense that my attitude is so much more positive. I have been doing the things that I only talked and dreamed about; such as writing a novel. I can say that I am in the process of asking, and absolutely believing, and I will get back to you when I know that everything I desire for myself is coming my way.
Thank you for opening my spirit, my mind and my heart and giving me the opportunities for the course my life is supposed to take. I am excited for this journey. I know I will be writing to you again when something amazing I am expecting to happen will happen.