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I have always struggled in relationships, career, completing goals, always looking for something to make me happy and keep me happy. Moving through things, from one into the next, never quite feeling complete. Always wanting something more. Something big. Something profound. Always, a part of me slightly believing there has to be something more to this life. I know it!
I struggle for many years of heartache, divorce, foreclosure, cheated on, partner in a life of drugs and crime, homeless with a baby, jobless, physical and mental abuse, anxiety, panic, loss of control over my emotions, instability, anger, hurt, acting in selfish ways, fear, resentment, claiming victim status, blame, my son’s father passing, and it goes on and on.
Through it all, a small piece of me believed and held onto the concept that there is something more.
One day, about three years ago, a friend introduced me to The Secret. Right away I believed and clung to the idea and hope of it all. A few years past and I gained more and more knowledge of Law of Attraction. I studied, wanted and craved more. I started seeing where it had worked in smaller areas in my life. I studied.
Then I went through one of the hardest relationship mishaps ever in my life. The one person who I thought was meant for me and would always be there, someone I took for granted, no longer wanted my selfish ways and found someone new.
I hit rock bottom, barely eating, barely being a mother to my sons, and barely holding onto much hope. After 2 months of trying everything I could to win him back, none of which seemed to do any good except hurt me more, I decided to turn inward.
I studied more relationship and Law of Attraction material. I started to get to know me. Accepted the hurt and moved through it and with it. Never resisting. I could not absorb enough information. I even managed to win that lover back into my arms. .
I had a breakthrough!
The gates to my mind finally swung open full force! My mind soared like big white fluffy clouds through a breezy sky at the intense speed of a jet plane! I became limitless! I started seeing and realizing everything I ever needed to be happy was inside of me! I started seeing others behaviors, including that lover, and the negativity they brought. The unhappiness they themselves harbored. I slowly, little by little started to realize the reason behind every hardship I encountered. My own sabotaging self.
It all fell behind me as I sailed to a place so happy, so amazing it stung my veins. My excitement was barely and is barely bottled. I am so unbelievably grateful for my life today. What I have now. I know what is coming and what is already in motion. I am so excited I can barely stand it!! In fact I can’t! I want to scream it, share it with ever person willing to listen!!! I have blazed past the feeling of doubt. I am constantly learning, loving, appreciating, and improving! Yes I have stumbled, but I am there!
If I could say one thing about The Secret, it was the floodgate for all that is happening for me now!
I have dreams that are bigger than this body, I don’t stand on the side of realistic anymore. I want to speak, share, inspire, help! I want to serve! I am, I can, I will. I am on the stage already, speaking to the people who are open to listen! The tears of happiness and gratitude sting my face. I can taste the salt. I hear the excitement from the people all there to listen to me. I see the faces, the tears, the hope they exhibit. I hear the hopeful cry out. I smell the smell of the room. It smells of fresh carpeting under the chairs. My life experience begins to flow. No script, no speech, just experience and happiness. We connect for an hour or two. My purpose is filled, hopefully a life changed or on it’s way. The nerves well up in me today! I am happy, I am free, I am blessed!
Thank you!! 🙂