Books, birds, and love!
Trust me, we all have the ability to part oceans and live an incredible, blessed, loving life! I just learned how myself!
My mum bought “The Secret” about four years ago. Each family member got a copy within a few weeks, and we talked a lot about it. For some reason, none of us fully managed to take the lessons to heart. For me, I had for two years developed a very negative pattern in my mind. I was a negative, pessimistic person. Still I was enjoying school, and had good grades, but hardly any friends. I was very unpopular during eighth grade to tenth grade. My teen years at school ruined much of my self-confidence and my ability to be positive and open up to friends. I was quite judgmental towards new people for instance, so when I read this book at the end of my first year in high school, I changed my focus and became much happier and I got many new friends.
Still, my family pretty much gave up on the LOA. We all believed in it, but we “couldn’t manifest anything real”, and for me too it was so hard, and I gave up and tried again several times. Sometimes I “made it work”, when I really managed, some how, to put my heart and soul into it. For instance, I got the summer job of my dreams. Most of the time, though, something was still “wrong”, and my family and friends who had pretty much forgotten all about it kept telling me I was too optimistic about manifestation, that was certainly holding me back.
Then I went on this program where I was to study four months abroad, all by myself. Live in a hotel, party, have little school, and just fool around in a tropical paradise seemed awesome to me, and it turned out to be just that great. I made several friends, enjoyed my lessons etc., but most importantly, in all my happiness, I knew I had to start using the LOA again. I did not bring the book or the DVD with me there, and I was uncertain how to start up again. I knew I needed inspiration, so I went on Youtube, and found clips from The Secret and from members of The Secret teams own “schools”.
Suddenly I remembered I once read that The Secret had been on Oprah. It turned out that the entire episode of this event was on Youtube! I watched it every day, several times, and whenever I heard something important, I just sat for hours listening to that message in particular until I knew it by heart. I also started going online to read your inspiring stories and it all really helped me get more on track than I had ever been!
It all inspired me so much, but I had problems manifesting still. Then I suddenly understood that the reason I was unable to feel truly grateful and create the life of my dreams was because I was lacking some kind of fuel to the deep “from the heart” feelings. You see, during my depression, I now realized I had allowed rationalism to take over my mind, and I completely shut off my feelings, so now I started working on really, really feeling things again, to open my heart.
One day, after two weeks more or less, I was browsing inspiring stories and came across someone saying something about the new book, The Power. In that story, she mentioned love. Something inside me clicked and I just sat there feeling truly grateful. In the next story I read, one of the sentences was: “I am a blessing because I am blessed”. I almost cried in happiness, and something inside me screamed, “You are a loved, blessed, incredible person! Go girl, get that book!”
Two days later I was out shopping with a good friend of mine, and we dropped by a bookshop. I knew what I needed: The Power. It turned out that a small bookshop in Asia, mostly containing books on Indonesian history and language, had two copies of The Power left.
It took me three days to read it. After only the first chapter, my eyes watered, and everything started to change. I remember that first night, lying in bed, starting to analyze my day, feeling OK (usual stuff), when a voice yelled, from deep inside my chest, “Shut up and feel happy.” I started remembering all the good things during the day. That, I believe, is when my scale tipped to 51% happiness, and I became a new person.
The next day, while preparing a cup of noodles I was going to eat with my friends by the pool, I just out of nowhere started to think about all the things I really love about each of them. By the time I walked out, I could not help but to smile. Three minutes later, a man living in my hallway in the hotel stopped by my sun bed and told me he and his wife were leaving, and he wondered if I would like to read some of the books they were unable to bring home to America. Then he handed me a bag filled with five action novels, all from the New York Times best seller list! I love to read, and I was just totally blown away! I knew that my feeling so great, in a loving state of mind, was the reason I got this gift! I thanked the kind man and his wife, and told all my friends about it, making sure to express my happiness and gratitude.
Then, the most incredible, life changing event happened the next day: I was alone in my hotel room, and I was sleeping in the middle of the day. I suddenly woke up by some strange noise, and looked out to see the most incredible sunset I have ever seen. I grabbed The Power and went out to soak in the beauty. On impulse, I declared that I was going to randomly open the book, and whatever I looked at, would be the quote that will be “mine” forever. Guess what it was?
“Through your ability to think and feel, you have domination over all creation” – Neville Goddard
Underneath was a story about Rhonda managing to attract a lovely bouquet of flowers just by loving them even more when she was unable to buy new flowers. I smiled and looked at the gorgeous sunset again. The sun was incredibly red, melting into the ocean, and a bright pinkish sky surrounded it. I smiled, and felt love in my heart. All of a sudden, a bird crossed the sky. For some reason, the bird completed the picture in such an incredible way. I had barley seen a single bird in the sky in ages, and it was so incredible to see it. Then my old pessimism said, “Too bad its gone already,” and my heart replied, “I love the birds even more now, because they are a part of this beauty.”
As I looked out to the view, a new bird appeared, and another one replaced it. Then three birds came And more, and more! Everywhere I looked, birds started to appear and fly from the horizon, above my hotel roof! I laughed and thought, “Wow! Soon they might start to dance”. Minutes later, birds were all over the sky, creating something like a circle. They flew in and out and around. I am unable to describe it. Never have I seen birds act like that. They came from everywhere and filled the sky! I heard some of the locals down on the ground commenting about the large amount of birds suddenly appearing. I just sat there filled with love and amusement! Then one of the birds almost entered my balcony, he was so close! I had tears in my eyes, and my heart was so filled with love I could do nothing but repeat, “Thank you so much,” over and over again.
The show lasted until the sun was done melting into the ocean and darkness started to paint our surroundings. When I looked, I could see a bird almost all the time in the twilight, but I knew the big show was over. So as I went into my room, I blessed each one of the birds that had come that evening, because I knew that each and every one of them (I was unable to count them, there were so many), came because of my love!
My life will never ever be the same! I am now a master of my life, and I am in complete love, and at peace with everything!
To everyone out there: your love is unlimited. It can give you anything you desire, if it is books or a bird show! You are a blessing to the world because you are blessed. Blessed with love!