Body And Self Esteem, The Process.
From when I was in middle school, I was not the ideal weight for myself. I was not comfortable in my body and it severely affected my self esteem.
When I was in High School, I came across The Secret. I tried so many times to apply it to my body but I always failed because I was always just so desperate. I would believe and be happy for half a day and then later on I would start thinking about the ‘how’ and then start feeling dejected. When I when I went to college I was 81 kgs but then I dropped 9 kgs in 5 months with no exercise. I did not consciously intend for that to happen but nonetheless, I was happy. However, soon I put on a few kgs and then I was sad again. This time it was maddening. I was at a place and age where I should be enjoying life, but I was hardly ever happy with myself and it really messed with my head. I kept trying to use the LOA but I was stuck in a rut.
I made a vision board with pictures of women with the ideal body that I wanted to have. I was 72 kgs and decided on a weight, 58 kgs, that I wanted to be at. I also listed other life goals. My problem was I could not be consistent with my beliefs. So I started small. I changed my wallpaper to the message, “It is happening. Thank you for the 58!”. I decided not to bug myself for not working out. If I felt like it, I would do it. I would eat whatever I felt like. I completely relied on my instincts. If I wanted to take the stairs, I would, or else I would take the lift. I prevented myself from feeling bad. And everytime I started to feel bad, I would remind myself of the LOA and read a few stories here. I made a list of 100 things I wanted in 100 days. Kept ticking things off when they happened. I tried to maintain gratitude and love for my body and life in general. I tried not to focus on what I did not want, but instead focus on what I did want.
Today is the day that my 100 days have ended. And I have gotten everything on the list! Most importantly, I am at my ideal weight. I am 58 kgs! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!
I am comfortable in my own skin. I have a toned, slim, full figure and everytime I shop or just walk, I feel great. So many people have told me that I look amazing, I feel amazing! I cannot express how long I have been wanting this and finally, finally it has happened and it feels so good! Thank you Genie, thank you to The Secret! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!
Do not lose hope, try to be positive and things will work out. It is happening. Thanks for the 58!