Better Than I Imagined!
I was in a relationship of sorts with a man for about a year and a half. Really, it was just a crazy roller coaster with very high highs and really low lows. Nothing about us ever seemed to be simple. We would break up and make up probably as regularly as other couples would go out to dinner. I wanted something normal and consistent with him so bad and I just didn’t understand why it wasn’t happening.
After watching The Secret movie, re-reading the book and looking at the Success Stories on this site, I realized that I was getting exactly what I focused on. Every time, without question. The good, the bad, the push and pull we had was definitely a result of my inconsistent thoughts. Some days I loved him and saw a future. I was confident that we were meant for each other and was willing to do my part to ensure our happiness. Other days, I just thought about how mean and awful he was, said hurtful things, was completely dissatisfied and told him things were going nowhere.
He did mention at one point that he wasn’t going to put up with my behavior forever. Granted, he was never an angel but he was definitely reaching the end of his rope with the arguing. When he said that, I honestly thought ‘Yeah right, we always come back together’. So he scared the heck out of me when he finally did say that we are not a match and he was done. And he meant it! I called and texted. I left sweet messages about how much he means to me and then angry messages about how disappointed I was at him giving up on us. I was still on that roller coaster.
During that time when I was seeking a response from him, I was replaying a lot of old conversations in my head, wondering if we would work it out and feeling anxious not hearing from him at all. Those were bad days. Honestly, anybody seeing me from the outside would have no idea that I was full of such angst. But it didn’t matter what other people thought. I just knew that what I was doing wasn’t good and wasn’t getting me any closer to what I wanted. I decided to stop the madness right then and there.
I was truly grateful for this little ‘break’. Never before in all of the fighting had I realized how in love I was and how I needed to really start showing it. So, it just did not matter one little bit that my man was not talking to me. I had not even a crumb of doubt about how much he loved me. I was truly happy every time I thought about him and our future. I stopped worrying about the past. I sent my man love and light all the time. I knew that the future I dreamed of with him was guaranteed to come to me!
And of course, it did! It really didn’t take long at all, maybe a week and a half? And I’m telling you, when he called it quits, he did not see how things could turn around. He honestly believed that we had exhausted all of our chances and he wanted to be a part of something fun, easy and loving. He had no idea how I could possible give that to him.
It’s almost magical. Well, it’s actually a miracle. The way things are between us now are better than I could have ever imagined. No more roller coasters. Everything is just smooth sailing. I’m happy to have my baby by my side and there is nobody else he wants by his.
Thank you to The Secret family! I hope all of your dreams come true too!