Believing The Desired.
All my life has been a struggle one way or another. I have had a Dad who walked out before I was born and two step dads, both violent. I learned a lot of negative things about relationships whilst growing up and was also called ‘fat’ by the one person who should of been the closest to my heart. I grew up feeling unloved, unwanted and ugly.
When I was twelve, I stared at myself in the mirror nearly every day, trying to understand what was wrong with me. It was only during these days that I began to realize for the first time, actually, that I was OK. And so I told myself this every day. The day came when I believed it and I moved on. ‘You’re beautiful’ I would say whilst looking in the mirror.
By the time I was 15 years old, I felt quite confident for the first time. I had a relationship with someone who was forbidden to me and they made me feel like the most special person on earth, a feeling I’d never felt before. It was not to last as we got ‘found out’. It taught me what relationships should be and now I won’t accept anything less.
I am on my own, but due to a list I have written of things I want, some already have happened. I believe I will find who I am looking for, with the help of The Secret and positiveness. Thank you, thank you, thank you!