Believe, Love And Trust
A few years ago a friend at work passed me a book. This book was The Secret. She said “Read this. I instantly thought of you, Im sure you’ll find some connection to it” So, a bit dubious I started to read it and I instantly felt a huge comfort.
I had always believed in Karma, do good things to receive good things, but something about this really seemed to touch my soul. As I read more and more I started to feel hugely content, and felt as though I really understood this power and how to use it. My life was already pretty perfect, I was already so happy with the dream job and amazing partner so everything seemed to make suddenly make perfect sense.
But, my story really starts 8months ago when I found out very much to my surprise that I was pregnant. My partner and I were really pleased, but shocked as this wasnt on the cards for a few years yet. However, we were really excited and couldnt wait to be a family. But in a strange way, this is where it all started going wrong for me. One of the first feelings I felt was guilt. I felt in someway that it was my fault this had happened out of the blue, where as we had always believed it would be a joint planned decision.
From this first feeling of guilt all sorts of negative feelings grew. The biggest of which was fear, fear of something going wrong. Sure enough this is what started to happen and eventually after 13weeks we lost the baby. We were both devastated. We felt like our whole lives had crashed down, everything I had ever believed in was gone. I had always been such a positive person, but now it felt like positive thinking and love didn’t work at all.
Within the next few months I was so sad and anxious and of course all I attracted was more of the same. I was terrified of being without my partner. I had this nagging fear that the stress we had been through would cause him to look elsewhere. He reassured me over and over that this would never happen, he didn’t want anyone else. But sure enough near to Christmas this fear also came true when one of my close friends tried to kiss him. He instantly pushed her away, but when he told me it completely broke my heart and all I could say was “I told you this would happen”. I just couldnt believe it, how could someone as positive as me be attracting such bad, horrid luck?
The next few months we started from scratch, we started looking for a new home and decided it felt right to plan a baby now. We were very much in-love, and after everything we had been through, we both felt it would bring us closer together. Months passed and nothing, no new home, no baby, I was so frustrated and depressed I couldn’t understand what we were doing wrong? Then all of a sudden one day about a month ago something clicked! I hadn’t realized it before, but it just hit me- I was attracting all this myself, right from the start when the bad feelings began. I was on such a negative wavelength of fear, sadness and guilt. It was no wonder my whole life had collapsed around me. All those negative things I was thinking about were one by one coming true. I wasn’t that positive person anymore.
I hunted out The Secret book straight away and began reading, reaffirming my faith and trust in the universe. I began to feel love and happiness again and I was grateful for the things I did have; my health, my loving partner and my friends. Instead of dwelling on the past I started to believe in the future and guess what?
Within a week we had found our new home and it was even better than I had imagined, it was an absolute dream home and we were able to move in within weeks. We were so happy in our new house and it really felt like this would be our family home, it was amazing. But even more amazing a few weeks on. . .Im pregnant! After months of trying and nothing happening, once I started to love and believe I already had my family home, it happened.
Everything makes perfect sense. Like really does attract like. The things you think about the most, Good or Bad, will become your reality, and the more you feel happy or sad about them, the more you are affirming them.
If you truly have unwavering faith and feel the love and happiness as if you have already received, then it WILL come to you, you just have to trust and believe.
Maybe some people may say it was coincidence, but I know in my heart that it was my positive thinking that changed my life around and I believe more than ever now that my life from now on will be perfect, and Im going to hold onto this feeling forever.