May 2010 6pm the day my world fell apart…
After numerous visits to hospital with my daughter Emma, finally an X-ray was ordered and the diagnosis was a huge tumour in her femur:(
The next few days were a whirlwind of ct scans,MRI scans, X-rays, blood tests, medication.. Then biopsy to confirm what we already knew..
My 11yr old baby had cancer!
Our lives were taken over by this nasty heartless disease… My 16 yr old relationship with Emma’s father ended..
My eldest daughter needed me desperately, she was just 18 but had to deal with cancer, betrayal and loneliness all alone.
I couldn’t be in two places at once and Emma’s illness was life threatening.. Life couldn’t get any darker…
I survived sleeping next to my daughters hospital bed for 18mths in total.. Chemotherapy, surgery, chemotherapy, surgery…
Relapse after major limb salvage surgery meant Emma’s cancer had metassised to her lungs..her pain was torture to witness… I couldn’t do what a mummy was supposed to “protect” my child from harm.
The days all rolled into one. Life became hospital and Instationalised….
Then Feb 2012 we heard the “all clear” words. No tumours in lungs….. Move on with your lives!!… This was as hard as living with cancer? Because I had survived but not lived for the last 2 yrs..
We had to reclaim our lives, friends, employment, and that was so difficult after just being the two of us…..
We tried to move on, but cancer decided it hadn’t finished with Emma?. And she relapsed again Sept 2012
This time Emma’s other leg same cancer bone cancer osteosarcoma!!
And this would mean another limb salvage surgery.. She was so afraid but older and wiser now. She had demons fighting in her head. And making the right decision was so very difficult .. And we waited 6mths for her to feel strong enough for more surgery.. The memories of her first surgery were horrific, painful and sad..
But she is and always has been so independent and positive…
We have just returned home from surgery after just 5 days and my daughter has just walked into the living room with the most beautiful smile on her face……. Positive, brave, courageous,
Because “I BELIEVE” in her and she BELIEVES in herself…..we are powerful and positive x