I am writing this to anyone who has been using The Secret principles and feel they are not getting what they are asking for. I have been listening to and practicing the principles of The Secret for over a year, and listening to the CD daily. I was somewhat successful at first and had some fairly amazing things happen, yet knew that I was missing the boat somewhere along the line.

Then came the time when my husband (who is handicapped) and I really needed money, and I could relate completely to Rhonda Byrne’s story about her company, and what a powerful feeling needing money can be. The best thing about that last sentence is that on the flip side of that coin, having tons of money is just as powerful a feeling and the emotional level is the same as when you need money. The only difference is they are just opposite sides of the same emotion. What I learned was if you are going to have an emotion, let it be on the up side!

I was sure I was doing all the right things. Acting as if, thinking the thoughts, speaking about what I wanted, seeing it as already done, giving with a joyful heart, meditating and reading everything I could get my hands on. Not only did I create a Vision Board, I also created a Giving Board. I put pictures or articles of all the ways I do and will give money. Yet my circumstances were only getting worse. I began to realize that I was blocking money from coming to me with my thoughts. Although I was acting as if, etc., I was also worrying and fretting and thinking other thoughts of negation. I was not tipping the balance in favor of abundance. I noticed that I really gave a lot of thought, time, and attention to my need for money. I asked the universe to give me a nudge every time my thoughts wandered. The Universe dutifully answered, and kept nudging me, but I didn’t notice. I was so busy worrying and fretting. But even though I was at my wits end and to the point of sobbing, I still persisted and never gave up.

Because I wasn’t noticing the gentle reminders, they became more painful! The Universe really does grant your wishes! I would stub my toe so badly tears would fill my eyes, my horse would step on my foot, or I would bang my head into an open cabinet door, practically seeing stars. I also burned myself badly, and on and on and on. Each of these type of incidents followed horrible thoughts I was having at the time. It took all of that just to get my attention. At first those were the only kind of nudges that got my attention and brought me back to focus. What was most interesting about all of this was that I finally started noticing more quickly that the Universe was communicating with me, and it wasn’t long before I would hear a horn blow, or see a sign, or have a thought, and get the message!!!

In spite of all this, we were behind on all of our payments and I saw no way out. The Universe didn’t seem to be cooperating!!! I could see no way to make or have more money, even though I was sure I was doing all the right things. No new ideas or new opportunities came to me, even though I had asked for inspiration and had actually tried two different opportunities. I was to the point of despair.

I was reading Charles Haanels’ book at the time and listening to The Secret daily. In spite of all the impending calamity I kept listening to The Secret and I would repeat over and over and over, “I have more than enough, I am abundance in human form, more money is being made for me every day, I am a money magnet, money comes easily and frequently, a river of money flows towards me, an avalanche of money falls all around me, I love money and money loves me, everything I touch turns to gold.” I saw checks coming in with more than enough money to pay all of our bills. I truly gave thanks and unquestionably felt the gratitude. Sometimes that was a challenge to accomplish!

Then one day things were so desperate that I felt I was at the end of my rope. We had less than zero in our bank account and our mortgage had not been paid and was due. I still did not let that effect me. Whatever would be would be. I gave it over to the law of attraction and I redoubled my efforts to focus, focus, focus only on what I wanted no matter what was going on around me. I saw clearly the amount of money we needed to keep our home and pay our bills. I imagined what it would feel like to be worry free and to know that all was well. I told myself, “I can afford that,” anytime I saw something I needed and wanted, over and over and over again.

I begin to pay attention to the nudges I was getting, and I stopped worrying! I chose my words carefully and was mindful of what I was saying out loud. I spoke only of what I wanted in my life. Most importantly, I never gave up even when it seemed like things could not get any worse. I believe the law of attraction works, I trust the universe to know and fill my needs, and I had utter faith that something wonderful had happened. I also began to understand that love of self is incredibly important. I wasn’t really sure I understood the concept! It was that foreign to me. To allow myself to love myself seemed strange to me.

I made up two games to play. The first game I would take each letter of the alphabet, starting with A, and I would say:

I am Alive
I am Aware
I am Amazing
I am Abundance
I am Able
I am Astonishing
I am Ageless
I am Agile
I am Angelic
I am Artistic
I am Athletic
I am All

And so on. Then I would move to the next letter in the alphabet and continue on until I got to the letter Z. By the time I got to the letter Z, it was very inspirational and often brought me to the point of tears. It started feeling so good to play this game. I truly began to believe all those adjectives. I started seeing things from others point of view. My whole life changed. At first I could whip through the alphabet in two minutes. Now it takes a half an hour to forty-five minutes to reach the letter Z! I know that one day it will take me hours to get to Z. I welcome that day! I keep adding new adjectives because more keep popping into my mind! Hmmm…. like does attract like!

The other game I would play was a money song I made up. I would sing it anywhere I could. In my car, in my house, in the tub, on my horse – anywhere and anytime I felt the need, which was quite often. I would stand in front of a full-length mirror, so I could see myself, and jump up and down for joy that all my money needs were met. I did this until I felt a sensation inside of me that I can only describe as feeling as though I was filled with smiles. I could feel the sensation of joy and belief inside me! It was so strong I felt I could walk through walls. I wouldn’t stop until I had that feeling. I scared my cats on several occasions with the whooping and jumping for joy!

All of this took place over six months time. My husband kept encouraging me to use the principles of The Secret, because he saw changes in me that I didn’t even see myself. Then one day he came home with the greatest news! We had applied for tax-free income for him because of his handicap, and were told that it could take as long as eighteen months to receive it. We could not wait eighteen months and had already been waiting for over a year! We were about to lose our home! That is when I began to seriously focus. Within one month after being told we would not hear for eighteen months and we would have to go through a hearing and then further waiting, my husband got a call. His representative told him that the agency decided to skip the hearing and just give him the benefits we were asking for. We would receive a large settlement and his first check would arrive in two weeks. His income more than doubled that instant, and all of our money worries are now over. We received a huge check for back compensation and now have a monthly income that pays all of our bills with plenty left over.

These days I envision my new home. I am so inspired by my visions!!! It is a place where anyone can come and learn natural horsemanship. I know exactly what the house looks like, inside and out. Every small detail, down to the dishtowels! I see myself climbing up and down the stairs, sitting in front of the fireplace, getting a drink from the refrigerator, my fingers gently caressing the granite counter top. I feel the coolness of the counter top and I see my reflection in its shine. I am smiling, really smiling. I am happy, really happy. I know what each room looks like, what its purpose is, its décor, and I see myself in each of these rooms, enjoying them. I know exactly what the pool looks like, the gardens, and the stables where the horses are. I am surrounded by others who have the same passion as I do for horses. I see owners with their horses, playing games with their horses, communicating with each other and learning to respect each other. I see them teach each other wonderful things. I see smiles everywhere I look. Hearts overfilled with warmth and love for all the beauty life has to offer each of us. I see joy and amazement all around me. I am so filled with gratitude that I am sure I will burst into a million energy pieces and come back together as me, over and over again. What a glorious feeling to have and to be!

My dream is to help others learn to communicate with their horses and to have a life-long partnership with these majestic animals, and my desire to do my part, to spread “The Secret” to the world. I want everyone to realize and receive what he or she needs to live in joy. I want anyone out there who is thinking that this doesn’t work, to let them know that yes, it does. It absolutely does. It truly has no bias and wants you to have everything you desire. I want to say to anyone who needs encouragement, anyone losing hope, and anyone who thinks this might not work, to keep focusing on what your heart desires, keep at it, persist, trust completely, believe entirely, and faith will find you and bring you every single thing you want. I want to shout it from the rooftops. I am so grateful for every breath I take, everything of beauty I see, for every person on this planet and beyond.

I want to say – your good is waiting for you. You can have your hearts’ desire! Your dreams are praised and blessed. They await you. They want you to come after them. Go out and get them and take the Universe with you!

It really, really works! I am living proof!