I was at a point in my life where my self esteem had hit rock bottom owing to a lot of different factors. I was unstable, my insecurities stared down at me, I was insecure about my career and even petty things such as the color of my complexion gave me an inferiority complex. The fear of being judged by people around me was the root cause of my feeling. It haunted me every night and every night I would have a meltdown. I was so easy to manipulate that the people around me could control my emotions better than I could control my own. My habit of depending on another person for approval made me forget my own capabilities and I was looking for satisfaction in all the wrong places. I was taken for granted by people and I was becoming more negative day by day.
During that phase, my mom was my great support and she could feel and see everything I was going through. One day she came to me and she asked me, “Are you happy with your life?” I said, “No”. After that, she just told me one thing, “How we are born and the mistakes we have made, are things that we can not change but one thing we can do is we can learn from our mistakes and make our life better. We should not allow our emotions to control us. Remember that!”
I was touched by her words. By then I was starting to realize my capabilities and potential. Although it took me time to realize all my potential and achievements, there is room to grow. I am learning and evolving every single day. In the process, I have forgiven those people who mocked me and hurt me. And as for the ones who decided to stick by even on my darkest days, I keep them close to my heart. Thank you so much for The Secret.