I was always sad. Don’t get me wrong, I have a very loving family. Having three sisters and loving parents to come home to every day is truly a blessing. But I was always angry. Of course I didn’t know I was being mean or selfish or rude. Until one day my sisters finally told me that I have a real anger issue. I didn’t really have anything to be angry about but I guess it was just my nature.

I knew I had to change. I still remember the first day I picked up the book called The Secret. Call it dramatic, but I felt better reading the very first lines. Now I’ve read a lot of motivating articles and books but I never received a true answer. It was through The Secret however, that I learned the art of gratitude.

I remember thinking to myself, how did I overlook something so simple yet so important? I made up my mind and said at least one good thing about every little thing in my life and it made me happy. I took a step forward and made a vision board to help me keep myself motivated to receive straight A’s in school. Believe it or not I earned a perfect 4.0 GPA that semester. Everything was perfect.

But I was doing something wrong. It was like I forced the universe to turn against me and I am back to square one. I am a girl with a gifted art talent, intelligence, perfect body, great attitude but it all felt worthless.

This story is not about any great achievements I’ve accomplished, rather it is about me using The Secret to help me through this dark phase. My first time in the past two years actually confessing that I am sad on the inside, but that’s okay because I am working on it.

Every day I use the art of gratitude to make myself feel just a little better. And it is working. It helps me get out of bed to go to work and do what I need to do. I appreciate the fact that I have somewhere to share my story and know that the readers will understand exactly what I am talking about.

My goal from today, this very second, is to re-read The Secret and every sequel because I am going to get through this.

One thing I would definitely love to say to Rhonda Byrne is Thank you! Thank you! Thank you for literally saving my life when I really needed a helping hand.

A couple of months from now I will be writing back with some good and happy stories. Sending light and love to everyone! God bless you all.