When I was started high school at age 13, I was bullied for being a vegetarian and got told that I was overweight. I did a lot of dancing, including contemporary, jazz, tap, hip hop, musical theatre and ballet (which of course you are expected to be stick thin for). Because I wanted to take a future in dance particularly ballet, I thought I had to lose a little weight.
So I went home one night, and after many days of thinking things through, decided I needed control in my life and wouldnt get anywhere without being skinny (which I now realise is totally untrue). So I started to control all my calories, exercise more and told no one. Then it got totally out of hand, I was eating about 60 calories a day, but exercising for about 3-4 hours a day, burning calories I didnt even have. I was completely scared that if I gained weight, I wouldnt be a very good dancer.
After several attempts in therapy, NOTHING worked. I saw many different counsellors who all tried to help but had no idea how. I got told a lot that I was too far in the grips of Anorexia to be able to be helped out.
But then one day, my mum came home and presented me with a gift. It was a book called The Secret. I’d never even heard of it and thought, Oh like that can really help with what it says it does. I decided to start to read it, since I currently had not a lot to do. Immediately I was impressed with the book, and knew it would be helpful.
I stopped thinking about how IF I was skinny I would be a dancer, and started thinking I AM an amazing dancer, and AM beautiful inside and out.
I am on my way to recovery now, and it is all thanks to The Secret.
Thank you 🙂