Amidst The Crisis.
The world is now currently facing one of the most difficult situations in our lifetime due to the COVID 19 Pandemic.
We have been seeing a lot of people dying due to the virus, the economy being crashed, the loss of so many jobs, domestic abuse, and also mental abuse. And unfortunately, I got mentally abused by my own mind.
Two months ago, I and my siblings had planned to go to Japan for a 2 week vacation, but due to the Corona virus situation, we changed our plan to visit my aunt in the province.
Everything was going smoothly until the President of the country decided to lock down Metro Manila for a month. At first, I thought it was a “blessing in disguise” but then I realized this will bring me mental torture as I won’t be able to go back to work right away as the cable internet provider would not be installing a router anytime soon since the production in China had stopped due to the virus.
One month became two as we were still waiting for the unit to arrive. During that time, I was already aware that there was something wrong with me. Every day when I woke up, I would read and then watch TV and it was always something negative and I did not have a way to escape. At the time, I tried my very best to change my thinking and feeling but I still failed.
Then I forced and reminded myself about what Dr. Joseph Murphy wrote in his book ‘The Power of the Subconscious Mind’, “Don’t be afraid of the monster hiding behind the door. There is no monster. You are the victim of your own belief.” That message helped me but I still felt fear in my heart. Then I realized that I needed to do something to let the monster in my head go away.
I had been forgetting to feel and say “Thank you!” After realizing that I started to read The Magic, listen to positive affirmations, and motivation advice on Youtube. I also realized that I am still feeling this fear because I had held on to it dearly. I forgot that in order to shift my feelings, I needed to first change my thinking.
Ever since that day, I started to feel better. Now I always bless my company laptop before I turn it on and say thank you to the company that values our safety more than anything else. I am thankful for my officemates who are very helpful on my queries and doubts about our process and they understood my situation, especially when I wasn’t able to go to work for 2 months due to the loss of internet connection. I am thankful for my aunt who never got tired of taking care of us since we were little until now that we are old enough to stand on our own. I am thankful for my healthy body that keeps me healthy. I am thankful for the fruits and vegetables that my aunt grew in her backyard as these helped my body become healthier and I am thankful for much more.
I couldn’t thank Rhonda Byrne enough for sharing and bringing joy to millions despite what the world is experiencing right now. I still am going to continue to be grateful and we will get through this as long as we say, “thank you!”