Ah, So That’s How It Works.
Like most people, I’d read the stories on here looking forÂ inspiration and searching in desperation, wondering what my story would be, and secretly hoping for some sort of overnight miracle. Â
I picked up The Secret two years ago; recommended to me by a work colleague, and was I instantly inspired.Â
I read it, re-read it, acquired the audio version, subscribed to The Secret Daily Teachings, preached to anyone that would listen,Â then nothing happened.
When I was bored, lonely or frustrated, I played the website’s “pairs game” and scoured the site to try to stay motivated.Â
Then life happened. The book got dusty and I got frustrated.Â
Sometimes, little things happened that proved it was working butÂ I was always searching and never-quite-satisfied with what, or where, I wanted to be in life.Â
I kept thinking if only I could be clear on what I wanted, then it would be easy, but it always felt out of reach. It was a vicious circle that only I created.Â
In that time, two amazing, massive, miracles happened. My husband and I had a beautiful, healthy baby boy and we bought a lovely house at almost half the price it should have been sold at. Yet while I could sit here and write all about how it happened, it isn’t my story.Â
My tale is about gratitude, at which point if I was myself reading this a few weeks ago, I would have clicked “next please”.Â
Without sounding like a cliche, until I started reading The Magic, I thought I was a very grateful, positive person who was always seeing the silver lining in situations. Â
It has only dawned on me through completing the daily exercises of The Magic, how my mind has been so ingrained with negative thoughts over the years. I truly, arrogantly, thought, “Yep, I’m grateful and lucky, I don’t really need to practice what I already know and do”.Â
How little did I know.
And so here I am; quite surprised at myself and I’m only at the beginning of something very exciting.Â I’m now learning to re-train my whole thinking and I’ll be honest, it is taking some practice and dedication. While I don’t expect this to be an overnight sensation, I’m finding ways to feel good and appreciate all the things I do have, instead of focusing on trying to find the unobtainable.
It’s all starting to click in place, and yes, there’s the occasional slip into the old routine but I’ve already seen wonderful changes.
In the process of having a baby, I’ve also discovered I enjoy and have found an outlet, dare I say talent, in writing. So I started up my blog, sharing the baby experience with and for other new parents:Â http://milkingitmusings.blogspot.co.uk/. I’ve since been published in a book and I’ve now set my sites on being a columnist for one of my favorite glossy mags – wish me luck!
So thank you so much Rhonda and team for helping me to be truly grateful for what I’ve got and for also writing practical day-by-day exercises for people like me who need a bit of a kick up the a..rt of appreciation.