A Fall before The Rise
I want to share a story that shows how powerful the process is even before we become aware of it.
I was 23 at the time, I lost my job, was forced out of my place of living and college because of my bad credit, and found myself traveling out of my home state on a whim that it would solve my problems. Truly I was really only running away from them.
I am and always was very computer savvy and always enjoyed my time on the internet. I made a few friends through chat rooms and had met a few people I particularly enjoyed talking to. While my world seemed to be crashing around me they had given me an invitation to come be roommates with them. It was an offer when I had no others. So I trekked the states from CO to KY to find my situation worse off. As I traveled I was in my own car with all my own stuff and my cat. During the trip out my car brakes down and I had to abandon it with all my stuff, except my cat. But I left it on the highway with the understanding & promise that we’d be back to get it. Lie number 1
While there in KY I met several interesting characters and made a few friends. Yet I was in a small town with nothing around it and without a car I couldn’t get a job. Which by the way I had been promised a job with a company as a secretary. Lie Number 2
I’ve usually been one to avoid drama, and with out a car or a job I was ultimately stuck living and depending on these new friends that seemed to be drama magnets! Including a two timing player who I had gotten involved with.
Thankfully one night I took a walk around the neighborhood and got myself into perspective, I didn’t like where I was, I didn’t like the fact I couldn’t go anywhere, I wanted to be by my family & my REAL friends, people who I could trust and actually rely on. I wanted home. And I think that was the first time I had used the secret, back in 2005, a year before the book came out and I had no idea there was a DVD.
So I called my mom up and said I wanted home, she bought me the first bus ticket out of there, unfortunately I had to leave my cat as no animals were allowed. But I came home, moved in with my mom, got a job, then a car (100% paid for), and finally my life all within 8 months! However that’s not where it ends….
A few years pass & I had not seen a doctor or a gyno in a while but was required as a procedure when I got pregnant. (that’s another story) After opening the mail one day I felt weak. There was a result letter from my gyno saying that I had Human Papillomavirus (or HPV). I had no idea what HPV was but all I knew was it didn’t say the usual “normal” for my pap smear. I was asked to make a follow up schedule immediately receiving the letter. During my visit my doctor explained to me that a HPV was related to the Genital Wart found mostly on men’s genitals. (some women too) This astounded me, I knew that once you got the virus, like most stds, even if it didn’t kill you it was nearly impossible to get rid of. I asked if I had to take a pill or something for breakouts and they said no it wasn’t like that, but it could lead to something more serious. Serious? like what? How much more serious can an STD get besides Aids? Try Cancer. Yea sometimes HPV can become cervical Cancer……
I was in shock. Not only was I pregnant but I could get cancer. I could have been depressed, I could have gotten enraged but I, somehow, remained calm. (or in shock) I remembered the last time I had a clean report and could only count 2 people I had been with since then and resumed to tell the father to get tested as he could have gotten an STD. Thankfully he was also calm and agreed to get checked and came clean.
I asked the doctor if there was anything we could do, she said there could be but we’d have to wait until after the baby arrived before treatment, until then we would have to hope that it doesn’t grow in the mean time. I was 3.5 months pregnant. I still had 6 months to go. There were times that I thought I would always be pregnant (I’m sure others have felt that way even without cancer looming in their pelvis). At least for the first two weeks after the appointment, then pregnancy just took over my life, I decided I was healthy for the baby, (as well as the adoption, again another story) made sure I ate healthy, felt happy, even exercised and I forgot about the Virus.
I allowed myself to feel good, not just for me but for the baby too. I was proud of what I was doing even if it came from a mistake, the end result was an accomplishment.
After I signed the papers and said a teary eyed goodbye to the little guy, I had still forgotten about the virus. Even as I went in for an after birth checkup pap smear. Weeks went by and I’m back in my apartment opening my mail and had this overwhelming feeling of gratitude and happiness. I got a thank you letter from the couple I gave my child to and a confirmation letter of a Normal pap smear. I sat down, placed my head on my arms and cried. Joy, sadness, love, relief…everything. I was alive, healthy, happy and so was my child.
PS. Between coming back home and getting pregnant I find a copy of The Secret and read a few pages. I finally got my own copy after I received these letters.
Thank you Rhonda B. The Secret Team, your daughter who gave you the 100 yr old book, anyone who has ever seen or felt the fantastic changed in their life from using The Secret and everyone who has shared their stories. Love you all!!!!