A book that changed my life
I am a 24 year old girl. I enjoy every moment of life. I love myself. I love to read more books, hear more music, watch new movies, learn dance, exercising, pampering myself, giving gift to my loved ones, eat chocolates, have fun. I want to plan my life; I want to buy a car from my money. I want to own a flat in Bangalore . . . and the list goes on. On the whole I can say I want to live.
Now you will think why am I here?
Here I go… After completion of my engineering in Textile Technology from a town in Karnataka I joined my job on 2-July-2007 in Bangalore. I had a beautiful relationship. My family loved me. I was having a great time until 29-October-2007. The day when my parents got to know that the guy I am in love with is not of our cast. My Father stopped talking to me. He fell ill and I had lot of arguments with my Mother. My Father didnt eat for three days. I kept crying in my single sharing room in my hostel in Bangalore. I didnt go to the office for three days. As my father is a diabetic patient he fell seriously ill. Finally, I made a call to my Mother and promised her I will do whatever they say, but ask Papa to eat. I had no other option than forgetting my first love/best friend forever.
It was the toughest time of my life. I was far away from home. I had nobody to support me. My parents were against me. My brother could not understand me. The person I loved from the bottom of my heart and expected that at least he will understand my situation and support me became my biggest enemy. It was the time when I had left hope for any happiness in my life. Even in my job I was not satisfied with the work/ salary I had. I felt as if my life is a disaster. I was broken.
Every time in my mind was only one thing…SUICIDE. I wanted to die. I wanted to run away. I did everything to forget everything and move on but every attempt made me more and more lonely. Day by day my depression was taking on me. Then one day my parents told me that I am supposed to meet a guy who is the son of a family friend (They were thinking of my marriage off course!).
I was so annoyed at that time. I was not mentally prepared to marry someone. But I could not say no. I had made a promise. I met the guy. Thankfully even he didnt want to marry and had a plan for higher studies. He said no to his parents, and we became very good friends. At that time he became my support system.
He had a girlfriend for the past four years. They never had any problems in their relationship, but this guy made me believe that he is unhappy in his relationship and he wanted someone like me. But he was a drunkard and whenever he was drunk, he made me know the truth. He told me things about his girlfriend which he should never share with me. He was such a mean guy!! He deserved being dumped.
I thought again and again about my parents who had made sacrifices to give me education or everything I wanted. What will happen to my family? Then I made a good decision I shifted my hostel and started staying with friends after office. Then, one day one of my colleagues forwarded me a book The monk who sold his Ferrari! The book made me feel better. I discussed about this book with my brothers friend. He suggested me a book The Secret. I thought let me try it.
It was The Secret which changed my thinking. Initially I did not believe the book. I mailed my problems to The Secret team and I got a quick response. I read the stories available on the official site of The Secret. Day by day I noticed how life changes just with a shift in your thinking. It was the time when I started feeling good about myself.
Let me tell you, I was never a studious girl, but I always scored more than everyones expectations. I did not prepare for my campus interview like others but I got it at first attempt. I was a rank holder in my university. I had scored 86% in 8th semester even though I suffered from chicken pox just before my exams. I had got everything I thought of getting in my life until Oct2007. After reading The Secret I started asking why? Why things had changed. Why I am punished and for what?
Then one day I got the answer from within. The answer was I was changed. I was thinking so negative that I am receiving the same. And then I decided I have to find that old Namrata who was optimistic about everything in life. I had to find myself and just be myself.
I have watched the movie The Secret recently. I keep listening to the audio of The Secret. I read The Secret teaching every morning. I love The Secret. It is working for me in every aspect of life!!
Now I work in a new company, I have the right job and the salary is more than expected. I have complete support from my family. My friends are with me. My marriage is delayed as much I wanted it to be. My parents seek my suggestion before thinking about any marriage proposal. Once again I believe in love and I await the perfect one to come in my life. I know now that I want a successful arranged marriage as per Indian tradition.
I am happy in my life and will always be.
I am very thankful to Rhonda Byrne and The Secret team for giving me the best gift in my life.
I am thankful to my parents who gave me so much love and support.