By Emma Ward
from Los Angeles
I had a happy and successful life in England as a model with amazing friends and family, I was earning good money, and doing a job I loved. I got offered a visa by a modeling agency in Los Angeles, which was an amazing opportunity for me to further my career, so of course I seized it with both hands, and moved there six months later.
However, things did not quite work out as planned. I found it difficult to make friends, my bank account was slowly going down, with also my confidence, as I wasn't booking any modeling jobs. About one year later I met an amazing man, and fell in love instantly. This was the last thing I wanted as I was focusing on my career. He was the perfect man for me, and we were so happy together. Six months after meeting him I fell unexpectedly pregnant. I was so scared as I had no job, no money, no friends or family around to support, and help me. However at the time my boyfriend was making good money, and he was so excited, so we decided to go ahead, and raise the baby by ourselves in Los Angeles.
After having a horrible pregnancy, as I was vomiting every day for six months, raising the baby was one of the hardest times of my life, but also the happiest, as I had a healthy beautiful baby girl. Things started to get really bad financially as the recession started, house prices went down, and my boyfriend was losing clients, as he was a personal trainer. Things got so bad we couldn't afford to pay the mortgage anymore on the condo we were living in. We stayed there as long as we could by selling our cars, and other things worth value, and I found it very difficult to get a job. I was so depressed, on the phone to my mum every day complaining of how bad my life was, no money, no job, no friends, and now nearly homeless with a baby!
Then I discovered The Secret! I realized how much complaining I did, and how I was attracting more bad things into my life. A few days later, we received an eviction notice. We had three days to leave the condo! Normally, before I read The Secret I would have cried, and imagined us living on the streets out of shopping carts! However, I stayed focused on what I wanted. I visualized a nice 2 bedroom apartment, safe, secure, near to a park for my daughter, the right price, I saw it in my mind, and it was so clear. I even told my baby girl how excited I was because we were moving into this beautiful place, and we were going to be so happy.
After two days of looking, things were not looking good, as we had bad credit, and we still had not found anything in our price range. But, I still believed with all my heart that our new apartment was out there waiting for us. Then my boyfriend called my he said, "I've found the perfect place. A lovely two bedroom apartment, safe, clean, across the street from a beautiful park!" I had the biggest smile on my face, I was overwhelmed with happiness and gratitude.
We are all now so happy in our new place. I also started to book some modeling jobs, and made some nice friends who also had babies. I am so grateful every day for my life, my healthy family, the few good friends I have, the money I make, the food we eat, the clothes I wear, and most of all the roof over my head.
About Emma Ward from Los Angeles:
My name is Emma. O moved to Los Angeles 4 years ago to pursue my career as a model. I have a loving and supportive husband, and a beautiful 17 month old baby girl.