I was stubborn
By Jennifer Jeyashri Anthony Alex
I was introduced to The Secret through my uncle. My Mum and I were in his house for something and he just passed this book to us and asked us to read. He said it might be useful to us. My Mum was having difficulties in her business and I was suffering from relationship issues.
When I was 16, I really loved a guy. He had another girlfriend at that time, but we were friends. Many times we nearly got together but he always went back to her. I suffered a lot for a year. Then in May 2006 he finally proposed. I thought my sufferings were over, but little did I know it was just the beginning. We were only together for a month before he went back to her. He avoided me completely and hated me for no reason. I waited for him for two years, telling myself, "I'll never fall for another, my love is true," and all those verses.
This year, after two years of waiting, he called me. I was so happy, but he called not to talk, but to shout. He yelled at me and told me that he never loved me and he just used me. He said he hated me because I'm fat and ugly. I was crushed. That was when I realized he was a jerk.
I liked my tuition sir but never did I ever focus on it as I was so in love and was faithfully waiting for my ex. But something about my crush on my sir attracted a positive energy and we liked each other. Maybe once or twice I thought to myself, "How nice if he's my boyfriend." And you know what, he was. We coupled. But the fear of losing him got hold of me. As I attracted, things became cold between us. He began to avoid me. A series of incidents occurred. He told me not to tell my friends(his fellow students) that we were together. But as I was upset with him avoiding me, I told my closest friend.
I was feeling so bad and kept on questioning myself, what is actually going on, because I didn't know why he was avoiding me. Many times I would look up to the sky and ask, "Why? Why me? Why again?" That was when my Mum brought back The Secret DVD. That was when it struck me. All the while I was focusing on what I didn't want, and was automatically attracting it towards me...
I didn't want to lose him. I started watching the Secret every day. I logged on to the website every day. I edited my photos with him. I stuck a picture of me with him on my vision board. I just wanted him in my life.
But he was avoiding me, and I was very upset. And that was when my friend tried to 'help' me. She texted him a harsh message and he got pissed. He texted me and wanted to end this relationship. I was confused. I used the Secret, but why didn't it work? I begged him, but he called me names and treated me so bad. I didn't want to give up. But I just ended up looking cheap.
Only then I realized.... we cannot manifest something for someone. It's over. Now I'm preparing a list on how exactly I want my Mr Right to be. I know he's around here somewhere, and the universe will bring him to me soon.
I'm writing my story here because there are so many girls out there wishing their relationship to turn a new leaf over night by using the Secret. They fail to realize what I myself failed to realize: you cannot manifest a wish for someone else. You cannot control what the other person is manifesting. Your manifestations might be contradicting each other. When it comes to relationships, you can ask for what you want, but you cannot change your order.
If you are in a relationship which doesn't make you happy, you attracted that person into your life together with all the pain. Attract the perfect guy for yourself so that you'll have a perfect life. You deserve better.
I've placed my order and am waiting for the delivery.
Thanks Rhonda. You made me realize things that I failed to. I'm looking forward to a beautiful relationship and a magical life in the future. My guy is just out there somewhere. Thanks.
About Jennifer Jeyashri Anthony Alex from Malaysia:
I'm a 19 year old girl who is looking forward to many pleasant and magical surprises in life... muax