I always knew, but didn't know how to explain it.
By Allen W.
from Aurora, CO
I had a pretty normal life, brother, sisters, divorced parents. My life was going down hill fast. I didn't finish high school, just got fired from a dead end job, and living with friends.
My friends split up, and one decided to move home to NY. I was 19, and in “no place important” in my life, I decided to go with her for the road trip from Colorado to New York. We had just made it inside the boarder of NY, and she fell asleep at the wheel, crashing into a guard rail at 75 mph. After the accident, I woke up on the pavement. You would think that changed my life, well no. It was just business as usual, because that is what I was used to. “I’m here, she’s there, the truck is over there, something happened, just another crappy day.” I spent the next week or so being transferred from hospital to hospital until they could find one that could fix my broken back, the other 19 broken bones, and various injuries. They lost my identification, calling me by the wrong name the entire time (since they believed I was delusional and didn’t know my own name apparently), I was alone, a long way from home, and far away from anyone I knew.
I spent the next 6 weeks in the hospital, recovering from other injuries, and waiting, while they made their plans of how they were going to put me back together and fighting over who was going to pay for it.
During this six weeks, there was a malfunction with the medical equipment, and I died, twice. The second time was pretty much by choice, because I couldn’t stand the pain any longer. No, I didn’t see any bright light, for those that feel the need to ask. When they were bringing me back the second time, I could not see what was happening around me, I could only hear voices. One of those voices was my nurse telling me, “You have to do this yourself, we can’t do it for you, you have to control the pain, you have to hang on, you are the one that has to keep yourself alive.” The other voice I didn’t know, but it said, “No wonder this isn’t working, it’s dripping on the floor” (in reference to the pain medication). So put two-and-two together. At that very moment, is when I learned about The Secret. I decided I was happy to be alive, that I wanted to live, that I will control this, and I will control my life.
Two weeks later, I had surgery to fuse my spine back together, and walked out of the hospital to make a very full recovery.
For the past 17 years, I have been living my life to the concept of The Secret, not knowing what I had discovered. The only other people that could relate to my “outlook on life”, were others that have been through similar experiences. I would try to project my thoughts and feelings into my friends and family, and try to help them understand, and live life as I do, but it never worked. So, I go about my life, knowing how much better it can be for everyone, if they could only understand, without having to go through what I did first. Unfortunately, I could never find a way to explain it.
Of course, my life has had it’s up and downs, and even a marriage and divorce since then. However, I am happy with myself, my life, my career, and am on a plan to be debt free within the next year.
I have had a wonderful girlfriend, for the past 3 years now, whom I met through some very extraordinary circumstances, from the other side of the Earth. She is on the right path in her life, but has been having trouble transitioning from the old, unhappy life, dwelling on the negatives, and I worry she may never make it. Since I love her so very much, I have tried, over and over to help her to understand my “outlook” on life. Trying to guide her to see the positives, and know that she is happy now, and can be always. Not only with our relationship in mind, but in her life and spirit as a whole. Unfortunately, however many great things she has accomplished already, she is still not happy, with the material things, or herself in general.
Stepping back a little… Two weeks ago, a co-worker came to me, and said, "I have this movie I think you will like." This co-worker is not someone I socialize with outside of work, or even talk to much at work. Just out of the blue, he handed me The Secret. He said, “Watch it, and tell me what you think”. I didn’t watch it right away, I just put it on the table, and figured I would get to it at some point.
Back to my girlfriend… One week ago, I found myself asking, “If there were only a way that I could explain my feelings, and way of thinking to her…” Unknown to me, the answer had been sitting on my table for a week now!
I just watched the movie tonight, and I am floored. I realize I am not the only one that lives life this way, but for the featured Teachers to be able to explain it in a way that I could not do for the past 17 years. It’s like they are explaining my very own Heart, Mind and Soul to me. I never saw it as a tool, or something that can be learned, only as “my way of life”. I loved it so much, I have ordered two more DVD’s, one for me to keep, and one for my girlfriend.
Our 3 year anniversary is coming up next week, and I have been going crazy trying to decide what to get her. Now, I have the greatest gift I could ever hope to give her.
About Allen W. from Aurora, CO:
Just a normal person, but have been holding on to The Secret, and didn't know how to share it.