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My Whole World.
Submitted by: MTW
LondonA believer of love, family, and blessings.
I had just removed myself from the most toxic of relationships. I had lost my job and was doing temp work here and there, nothing with soul. I was sad, depressed maybe, and completely at a lost end. I wasn’t full of hopelessness, I had accepted that for a little while, life might be just this empty.
One of the things that I had wished my relationship to be was meaningful, full of love and respect and all the things that would make me complete. All I wanted, all I ever asked and wished and hoped for, was for someone to love me, and if we were lucky, have our happily ever after.
I was part of a large online forum and had given up on it with all the drama going on. I was bored of it. So I wrote one ‘final’ story of how it didn’t really matter what we said online, because it wasn’t who we really are. And someone wrote a smartass response back. It made me giggle. A proper giggle. I replied, and we talked. We talked the entire night. I even dreamt of him. I hadn’t seen him, didn’t know his name, but I had a dream of being wrapped in his arms and feeling safe, warm and loved.
We kept in touch. It was tough. He was 4500 miles away and we didn’t know what was going on. After a month I told him I loved him. I knew he felt the same. Fast forward 4 years, he was finally living with me. In that time, I kept asking, and asking, and asking for the two things. Someone who loved me, and for us to have a family.
We had to marry within 6 months as part of the Visa requirements. We married, a small wedding of just family, followed by a night in a romantic hotel in the middle of London. We spent a lot of time talking about our future. Dreams we had had. Both of us dreaming of a small family. A girl and boy. What our home would be like.
And now we have the daughter. A honeymoon baby. We’re working on the rest. We know we were blessed. We know it’s because we both asked for the same things. A shared dream that is slowly coming true. Not all things happen instantly, sometimes it’s not the right time. The universe knows when it is though.